Grr... :)

tadaa !

2011-03-05T23:05:00.000-08:00

Surprise !

I just thought this word should always go with 'tadaa'.

Anyways, whoever remembers the most random things that you said and does the most random things to fulfill your most random unfulfilled wishes - is a sweet pie.

Whoever acts like he can't make a decision to where to go to and suddenly turns around and give you a surprise that caught you off guard - is a sweetheart.

I was thrilled. One of the treasured moments. Thank you.

Was browsing through YouTube and saw some amazing talents, child music prodigy. Gave me goosebumps.

Here's a good piece. Spring from Vivaldi Four Seasons. Enjoy!

Tears are unspoken emotions,

PeiNing.

Paranoid or not?

2011-03-04T21:43:00.000-08:00

Speak Now - Taylor Swift

I'm starting to develop this phobia of going to Wisma HELP's LC. You must be wondering why. There's no monster there. Its not creepy there. Yes its a little damp and quiet.

Thanks to the two security guard whom I got scared of. One of the older guards constantly greets me with this very flirtatious tone whenever I pass by there and sometimes even scrutinizes at what I wear, from top to bottom. I'm scared. I'm not happy with it.. But out of politeness, I am forced to reply his pervertness with a brief smile. Sometimes, I will pretend not to see him nor hear him call out at me and just sprint pass him yet he will still try his hardest to get my attention. Can't he see the fear in my eyes? Insensitive bastard. I labelled him the 'pervert'.

The other guard, whom I presume is a sort of newer guard was okay initially. Until one time, when I was sitting peacefully at one of the bench waiting for my dad to come pick me up, he called upon me and asked me loads of questions that are none of his business. He asked what course I'm doing in HELP, who comes to pick me up, where I live, all my personal details that should not be uncovered to strangers like himself. But out of politeness, I replied while trying to put up a facade and when he finally shut his mouth, I turned back and made myself a disgusted face.

So till this day, my heart starts palpitating whenever my dad stops his car at the entrance, knowing that I have to walk pass these two men with much distress and unwillingness. You might ask me to file a complaint on them guards but no, I won't. Maybe I am being paranoid. Maybe they just did what they do out of politeness, like how I will entertain them out of politeness as well. Maybe they are just bored with their mundane job and had to find something to do. Just maybe. And of course I pray hard that I'm just being paranoid. Oversensitive and hyper vigilant. I hope I am wrong about them.

For the record, my packages arrived in all universities on time on the 28th February. SAFELY. Now wait for these universities to evaluate my application and accept me. *fingers crossed*

And in the meantime, SUNY Plattsburgh sent me an email saying that they accept me. Some technical problems to solve first though, including my official TOEFL score.

I should stop sulking over my inability to tackle the psychology midterm papers, instead, wait for the results to be out to decide whether to sulk or not.

Even if you break me into half or shatter me into a million tiny pieces, every bit of me remains yours. I don't want anybody else to have me, except for you.

I love you xx

Trapped.

Picture credit : Nicholas Lim

Pei Ning.

Little roses for love.

2011-03-02T09:18:00.000-08:00

So today, some BComm students organized an event to spread love. As long as you contribute by writing a love note on a post-it and put it up on the board provided, then you can get a beautiful rose for free!

Oh yes. It was a really generous thing. They did it for their class project. But hey! Many were enjoying the beautiful roses. Including me of course.

College started early and sleepy. Caught up with some A Levels friends and then went out for brunch with Michelle at O'Briens. Had some quality time. Yes my first time to that place after *counts using finger* ... a year and 2 months? Massive fail.

Back to KPD E and the 'love booth' was up! So Justin was one of the first to write a love note saying "MROAR!!" and he got me a red rose. How sweet. It bloomed so beautifully that I was mesmerized by it. For real. I got him a champagne colored rose but it was kinda droopy. Unfortunately. Not many choices left to pick from.

We ended up being hooked on a LOVE topic based on 'what is love'. My love note was 'love is not love without love' Mind-fked eh? Yeah its nonsensical, redundant, but true in a way. So they started tweeting all those horny things about love on Imani's twitter. Poor girl. People may start thinking she's horny now.

'Love is men. Naked men.' 'Love is falling lingerie.' 'Love is when you go mroar and jump.' 'Love is something hard.' 'Love is wet.' 'Love is down there.' What?

Everything that came out from our mouths simply don't make sense and are certainly horny stuffs. But nonetheless, we enjoyed it. Certainly a day to remember. Something to miss about ADP and college when I'm gone. Some day.

Mr. Ho was indeed, scary as usual. Well, he's gotten more strict these days. Hmm... What else?

Oh and Jeremy Choy complimented on my so called hidden talent in dancing. For real? He's so pro in dancing and he said I have the style, swag, something to pull of in dance. Oh well, no one actually told me that so I'm kinda a little in seventh heaven. And I tried the so called laughing gas. No it didn't work on me. I didn't laugh my head off. Everything is still well attached to me body. Instead, that thing that I breathed in, cause me a headache for a while. Feeling? Not good. So it will be the only time that I'll try. I'll probably try it some other time to see if it has an effect, when everyone's laughing that is. Maybe its conformity. Yes definitely.

After class, hung out with Derrick and Amanda. Even now, I'm still in a group chat with them. It feels so good to just talk to them. Somehow. They are nice people. :D Me likey...

Oh that's all I guess. I need to work on my assignment due on Friday tomorrow... Staying up late at night? I guess so. *shrugs*

And I'm out. Nights.

Pei Ning.

sleep deprivation 101

2011-03-01T06:37:00.000-08:00

La Fille aux cheveux de lin (The Girl with the Flaxen Hair) - Claude Debussy

As the title suggests, I have been having serious sleep deprivation these days due to the Psychology midterm for Abnormal and Developmental. Clearly, I can't possibly be continuing on to be like that or I'll seriously die young.

Spent the whole of last week and the entire weekend trying to study for the exam. Was seriously worried about Abnormal so I emphasized more on that. Heck, till Sunday that I realized I barely touched Developmental. There goes my confidence towards the subject.

Abnormal turned out rather okay for me with some tough questions here and there.
The four of us entered the hall and sat down comfortably. As I was shading the mcq paper, I vividly heard Amanda whispering at me and I almost scowled at her in disapproval. Then she pointed at the white board that says "Life and Leadership Skills". Dead. The moment I saw that, my heart sank. So that left us packing our things, ditching our bags behind and ran across the room like lost and panic chickens, trying to find where the heck our exam venue was supposed to be. Didn't lose any minutes or started late but the nerves did had some effect. Raced with time to the completion of the exam. Stress. No one left early if I was not mistaken. That was how it was.

Developmental, in the meanwhile, was hell for me. I literally had almost all the 55 mcq questions circled at the number because I wasn't sure of the answers. While for the subjective part where we were required to do the matrices. I stared at it. I did not do my revision on that topic thorough enough to entirely know how to answer them. Plus, the effects of the accumulated number of hours of sleep I was deprived of, started kicking in when I arrived at college in the morning. I stayed up all night to study for the subject, but heck, all of the materials that I studied did not come out in the exam! And the table I picked was imbalance, and was getting on my nerves. I almost went crazy in the middle of the exam, fighting the strong urge to not shout out loud and snatch Gilbert's paper and copy all of his answers. Poor dude was sitting on the right of me.

I was one of the last to exit the exam hall. And when I finally did, I almost fainted in front of the door after I exit the hall.

Met Cassandra and Mitchell while I was waiting for my mum to come pick me up from the hell hole and KO-ed the moment I reached home.

For the second day consecutively I did not bring my mobile phone to college. I guess part of my brain cells are already dead. Fried. Burned. Barbecued. Anyone care for some roasted neurons?

Yes and this week is hell for me. I'm surprised how I can survive the first two days of the week. I had my Abnormal paper in Monday evening at 5-7pm. Developmental in Tuesday morning at 8-10am. Western Civilization quiz tomorrow, Wednesday evening 4-6pm. Developmental assignment submission on due on Friday evening at 5pm. This is worse than high school. Really.

to do list:-

~~- Abnormal Psychology midterm~~

~~- Developmental Psychology midterm~~

- Western Civilization quiz

- Developmental individual assignment

- Western Civilization individual assignment

Almost there! Hang on babe.

Evelynlpn

Day of Atonement.

2011-02-18T11:54:00.000-08:00

Fireflies - Owl City

Felt like I was preparing myself for war. All the supportive documents to be submitted, racing with time to make sure that my things will reach the states on time before the deadline. Really chaotic. And s t r e s s.

It sucked up 70 percent of my energy preparing all these stuffs and worrying about them. Not a fun process to go through. Much hustle as well.

After submitting my application forms and paying the application fees online, I will officially be free of any application procedures. Bad thing is that I will be all helpless by then and can do nothing but to wait for any uni's acceptance letter. Just one university will do and will keep me safe from being a college dropout. Oh gosh does that sound like those sound effects from a horror movie or what? *shivers*

Picking my packages up and handing them to registry. I hope my application make it on time for the March 1st uni deadlines. *fingers crossed*

So the next thing to be all stressed out about is Psychology midterm. Yes. Midterm again. Seems like its so fast. College started, then CNY break and now midterm. What's next? Assignments. Oh great! *grunts*

Whoever says college life very slack? Well, I do tell people that it is slack cause it does has its own slack time, just that it doesn't always lasts long. Note to self of not to procrastinate never seem to register, nor accomplished. Massive, epic failure.

Night out with Khai Sern, Jit Sun and Oei Keong was nice. Went back to Edu Smart to see Accounts teacher, Ms. Lim, Uncle Chan and Pn. Molly. They were so happy to see us, though Pn. Molly can barely remember me and Uncle Chan has completely no clue who the heck I am. Got a nice warm hug from Accounts teacher. Aww... Massive aww. Unexpected.

Planned to walk over to go say hi to Physics teacher, Mr. Yeoh but due to his massive class volume, we doubt he recognizes us so we chickened out. :D

No point disturbing the class anyways when we anticipated that the teacher will have no clue who we are.

As usual, Uncle Chan was preaching the students with his usual, cliche lines like "sow and you will reap (whatever crap)" and "train of thoughts". Really liked that moment when Pn. Molly was trying to recall my name and Khai Sern was interrupting beside, suggesting weird non-existent names like Kimberly for Pn. Molly. And I just shushed Khai Sern by saying, "Don't break the train of thoughts." Indirect sarcasm of Uncle Chan's favorite line and Pn. Molly burst into laughter right after that.

Yum Cha at Kayu. Two hours of non-stop conversations and laughters can totally wear a person out. But when I was back home at 11pm, watched half an hour of American Idol and I'm back to studying. Sigh. Took the whole 4 hours to finish 20 pages. That's how fast my studying speed is.

MASSIVE FAILURE ALERT!!

Its kinda late now already. I shall post this up and decide whether to continue since I'm still quite awake yet sleepy. What the hell am I talking about?

Okay fine, maybe I can't think straight no more. Sleep it is.

Goodnight peeps!

Falling down ain't falling down if you don't cry when you hit the floor.

Evelyn Lee.

I thought... Not!

2011-02-16T09:21:00.000-08:00

The day started fine. All the usual hang out sessions before classes plus me, getting all hyped up and excited for the fact that I can finally submit my documents to Ms. Naini the next day and get over with university application.

Alas, came home to sort out everything and found out that I have lots of incomplete stuffs and incomplete documents and lots of other stuffs to worry about.

My stress level peaked for the entire night and I'm practically mind-fried right now.

*its 1.11 now. Let me just make my wish first before continuing.

Okay. So I was literally overwhelmed with all the emotions and the workload to deal with.

I'm quite numb now already. All I am capable of doing is to curse at the wind to ease my throbbing worries and bursting emotions. I feel like I need to be heard, yet I don't know how to express myself.

Texting Amanda seemed to be one of the good remedies as I bombarded her with loads of questions about uni application. She seemed glad and nice enough to solve my problems and to ease my worries. One of the thousands of reasons why I love her so much and like hanging out with her.

So she said, "You're like bustling about calling my name in a teenie weenie voice." When I called her name and started asking my questions.

So she said, "You foul mouthed vulgarity spewing pirate style cursing lol toooooot." When I told her how badly I need to curse.

She's like a big sister to me, one way or the other, calming my nerves and constantly reminds me how much I need to stop procrastinate and start studying. Amanda, you're my motivation! I love you! :D

*puts up the serious face* I'm serious.

*puts up the joking face* But no worries.

*puts up the serious face* I'm straight.

How badly I need a hug right now? So bad I will go to sleep now and get one in my dreams.

Doodleloo,

your immature friend.

telepathy senses danger.

2011-02-15T03:14:00.000-08:00

Geu Nal Ee Hoo Ro - Sung Si Kyung

Valentines passed by uneventfully for me. Just like the past 17 years of my life.

Though I hope many of you out there enjoyed your dates, blind dates, whatever you attended yesterday.

My Valentines Day was rather exciting though, with all the morning West Civ class, brain wrenching calculus class and evening class for Abnormal Psych. And my first assignment of the semester was due on Valentines Day itself.

I skipped half of Abnormal Psych class, cause my usual favorite lecturer wasn't the one teaching, instead, an amateur female young lady was giving the lecture. I didn't like the way she presented the lecture, for the way she tried to speak fast, but stuttered a lot along the way and awkward pauses in between. Need not say, her voice was a turn off. Well, not exactly a turn off but didn't appeal to me as a student. Didn't interest me. Unfortunately.

The worst thing was that she introduced a group work thing and required one representative from each group to present the work done. What? So that left Amanda, Alicia and I escaping out from class and sat outside of the lecture hall chatting.

Alicia was filling us about her ghostly encounters and we were talking about topics, way interesting than what the lecture going on in the hall beside us has got to offer. Nevertheless, Alicia's abrupt leaving scattered the group and we went our individual ways. Nice catch up session. :)

The whole route home was jam packed. Why so? :'(

Suddenly, the uncle that was very close to my family decided to come to my house for dinner. It felt like reunion dinner all over again, cause his surname was Lee as well and our ancestors were from the same kampung back in China, so it felt like there was an invisible bond in between.

The rest of the night was spent drinking Chinese tea and getting trashed at Tetris Battle by Nicholas especially. Epic.

Went to sleep feeling like a complete loser feeling utter crappy.

So that was my Valentines Day. How was yours?

LeePeiNing.

perfect,

2011-02-13T08:38:00.000-08:00

Just The Way You Are - Bruno Mars

though this song is overplayed, overrated, the lyrics is still what all girls in this world need to hear from another person.

Recently, I came across with this Elmo video on facebook. It shows the other side of Elmo, which was really scary and bipolar. For a moment it changed my perception towards that little cute red creature that everyone can't get enough of. Then I spent the next three days stuck in Elmo fetishism. I would be singing the Elmo's song, impersonate Elmo's voice, googling Elmo's images. Yeah it was that bad. That's why its called a fetish. An obsession would work too.

Its Valentines Day again. It is rather true that the perception of this particular day is specially for lovers and couples. If you have been thinking that way as well, you are wrong.
To all the singles and couples in da house, also, to those who thinks that they are going through some stages that they called 'its complicated', happy Valentines Day. May you all have a great one! Spread da love dawgs. Fo' shizzle ma nizzle.
Here is to every single creature in this world. You are beautiful and perfect in your own unique way.
"Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing, you're fuckin' perfect to me."
"So raise your glass if you are wrong in all the right ways."

Happy Valentines Day!
EvelynLeePeiNing.

telepathy.

2011-02-08T02:07:00.000-08:00

Monday, 7th February, 2011.

Today was a pretty nice start to college. First day back to school from the Chinese New Year week long break.

Well, it was West Civ class and we were peacefully listening to Mr. Ho's lecture and on the verge of falling asleep at the same time. Everything was fine till Derrick Johnson walked in the room. I stoned. Then proceeded to use the bulky textbook to cover my body.

Yes I was wearing a red checkered shirt, with brown leather belt and dark blue jeans. Derrick, on the other hand was wearing a slightly brighter red checkered shirt and dark colored jeans. We looked exactly like we were wearing couple's outfit. Really. No joke.

So in the end, we took a picture together. Its currently with Jun Kent but I'll still put it up when I get them.

Calculus was a little hard to fathom. Had a hard time understanding how exactly it works. Felt a great drop of self-esteem when I failed at throwing the paper rubbish into the trash can. Had about five tries and managed to get it in for the sixth. I am a failure. CK came back to HELP for the second time and drove Michelle and I out for pork noodles. nyomnyomnyom...

He's such a nice guy to always drives us around and even though he moved to Klang campus now, he still comes back pretty often knowing that we miss him and of course, he misses us as well. :D

Today was a good day after all. :)

Tuesday, 8th February, 2011.

Developmental class was rather interesting and funny. I realized how similar I am to Amanda. We observe the same things, we think alike, we somehow manage to find our ways back to similarity. So there was no flakey-haired girl but there was plenty of narcolepsy people. Including Alex, who was sitting right beside us. It is amazing how he can talk to us at one moment and fall right into sleep in the next. Really scary when it comes to his ability to fall into REM within a few seconds.
Lunch with Derrick and Amanda after that. Derrick was such a sophisticated dude I tell you. Just how many guys keep coins in a beautiful container and dig out coins from it to pay parking? Had a joy ride in his four wheel drive.
B'sides these, everything is ordinary.

Pei Ning.

screw that.

2011-02-06T08:07:00.000-08:00

Because You Sting - Jea ft G.O.

Rules are made to be broken. And why so serious sometimes?

I was back to my high school to collect my SPM and LCCI certificates on New Year's eve the other day. Well, woke up in the morning and saw Jo Keat's text saying that the school's office was open and I can go back to collect my certs. Leisurely, I went down stairs and grabbed my juice to drink. After telling my mum that I needed to go back to school, she sorta kept on bugging me to go get it immediately. It was 11.30am then. Said she, what if lunch break when I go, what if office opens for half day only. Okay she was right. So I rushed out in my casual home wear. With shorts. And slippers.

I was in the car, waiting for traffic light to turn green. Then I realized the biggest mistake I was making. My mind can't help but to think how my mum will throw tantrum if I were to return without my certs. So I was worrying all the way.

I rushed up the stairs the minute I got out of the car, seeing that I just had a bad argument with dad, catching a glimpse of a girl shorter than me by a few inches, standing by the phone booth. Entered the office, requested for my cert, heck that Malay dude refused to give me my certs. Said him, peraturan kerajaan. I fumed. I pleaded another time just to get back the same rejection. I literally banged that damn door open and burst into a run back down the stairs. I thought I could use that girl's long pants to pave a way to getting my certs. Yeah I know, I'm resourceful.

True enough, lucky enough, she was still there. God knows what she was there for, I just asked the weirdest question on Earth, which was to borrow her long pants for 10 minutes. After some reluctance and some pieces of my perfect explanation, she agreed and asked where can she change her pants. To my amazement and amusement, she was not from my school. Her mother is a teacher instead. I thought, man, she has to be there to save my life. She's not from my school, its not even a schooling day, there's no curricular activity going on, the whole school's empty, its lunch time already, what the hell is she doing there then besides saving me from hell hole?

Her name's Awirah by the way. Managed to catch it right before I say thank you for the hundred and tenth time and bid goodbyes.

Sometimes, it takes just a little luck, a little of someone else's kindness, to go a looooong way.

One of your minuscule action may mean a great deed to someone out there.

So, have you done something good today?

Evelynlpn.

自责

2011-01-29T08:29:00.000-08:00

小酒窝 - 林俊杰，蔡卓妍

这，我从来都没有要求任何你给不到我的东西。

这，我从来都没有要求过任何你办不到的事情。

这，我根本没有咄咄逼人。

天真的我，一直都在渴求着一段美好的爱情故事。

也许，我真的太无知了。

我真的很需要一个可靠的人，陪伴着我度过身活的点点滴滴。

但感觉上，我就一步一步地向前迈进，你却在途中停滞了脚步。

当我累了，想休息了，想要原本身旁的你让我擦汗，想要靠在你结实的肩膀上，转了身体，却不见了你。人呢？

可我也停下了，耐心等待着你的归来。

我也不断的找理由，提你说好话，更曾认为你到别处去替我买水来了。

等呀等，人也少了，美丽的晚霞也出现了，把整个天空点缀得缤纷无比，你却依然无影无踪。

我也就从此没见过了你。

无缘无故，真的很想痛苦一场，真的很希望你在我坠弱时从次出现，把我从山崖救了回来。

真的在期盼着你从我身后紧紧地把我搂着，嘴里不断的安慰着我，并答应我你不会再把我弃下。

为什么你就从来都不体会一下我呢？难度真的是这样高吗？

但我并没有全怪在你身上。

无奈的同时，我更感到自责。

全都怪我当时过于冲动，没三思而后行，造成了今时的惨剧。

我也为了这，哭成了泪人，但也挽不回曾经的过错。

我不断地想，如果当时我忍气吞声，也许也还可以维持原本无暇的感情，也许也就没有今天的尴尬。

我失去了对你的安全感，也不知道你心上是否还有丝毫对我的爱。

总怕你有一天真的离开了。总怕一直以来都是纯真的我一厢情愿。

总怕我根本从开始，一直在犯错。

你是否再责怪着我？是否还在犹豫着这段感情？是否在怨恨着我？

真怀念从前的我们

佩宁

sweet serenade.

2011-01-29T07:26:00.000-08:00

Speak Now - Taylor Swift

As time ticks pass, my hope gradually fades. More like drowned with the minutes. But I'm struggling to stay up, so that I can continue to wait, whereas you probably are at somewhere, oblivious of my anticipation.

Woke up today feeling weary and groggy with a mild aching of the stomach. Half-boiled egg and hot chocolate for breakfast. mmm... Very unusual and delicious.

Went out for shopping with the family at MidValley and the Gardens. Our greatest motivation then was to find a shirt for daddy for new year, turned out, he didn't get anything while I bought a cute sailor-like polo T from Nautica. That sums up to 7 pieces of garments for new year. Omggg... The most in my new year outfit history. Would've added one more dress from Cotton On to the list but mummy said since I'm transferring to US already, I shouldn't buy too many clothes cause I can't bring too many over. Cruel truth always hurts. :(

Obligated to do spring cleaning with the family tomorrow. I loathe. Cause I'll always end up sneezy and sniffy after. Its not fun. Especially to catch a flu caused by dusts. Its disgusting. Just imagine dust particles entering your nose, then lungs? ohemgeee...

Anyways, I'm still working on my personal statement. How inefficient a person like me can be. I should totally stop playing Tetris Battle on Facebook and start working on my uni applications. Deadlines are nearing dear. Get to work. Just how many times I need to remind myself. -.-

Checklist:

- Abnormal Psychology assignment

- Study for Western Civilization quiz

- Personal statement

- Uni application forms

- Spring Cleaning

- Celebrate Chinese New Year

The holiday is never enough. :(

Pei Ning.

Riesling.

2011-01-27T09:01:00.000-08:00

Was the name of the wine drank the other day at The Wine Company in Singapore. It was nice.

So, Chinese New Year is less than a week away and frankly speaking, it doesn't feel like it is approaching at all.

No excitement. No anticipation. Nothing.

Such a disappointment huh? Yeah I know better.

I'm guessing maybe its because it is so close to the other festive like Christmas and New Year, that people have not wrapped up their enthusiasm for the aforementioned days. Well, speaking from my point of view, I was still singing Jingle Bells song in Calculus class today. Yes I was that lame and distracted.

Oh but I was not alone. Mitchell, who was sitting right beside me, was humming this Looney Tunes theme song at such high pitch that when I finally asked him a question, he did not manage to tune his voice back down and answered me with a chipmunk-sounds-alike voice. I was certain that I stunned for a little while, then started laughing hysterically with him joining in beside. It was hilarious and awkward.

Anyway, another reason could be that time is passing way too fast. In case you people hadn't realize, January is coming to its end already. Then February is on its way. Then March. Then April. Then December. Then 2012. Then 2020. Then we become old. Then we die. Or maybe, we'll all just die next year when the world comes to an end.

But think again. If there were to be a functional clock which has never stopped in the past 50 years, then it can probably tell us if time has increased in speed (its hard not to believe that it hasn't). Could it be that we have been too busy with things that we don't realize time has come and gone? Could it be that we have been way to leisure just as the saying, 'time flies when you're having fun'? Well, these are the questions we ought to ask ourselves. Self-reflection time!

One last reason that I can think of - nobody really cares about Chinese New Year this time round.

Nevertheless, Chinese New Year wouldn't be quite a nice one without a complete family to celebrate with you. Chinese New Year wouldn't be quite a nice one with so many things from college and everything left to worry about. Chinese New Year wouldn't be quite a nice one with so many things left to complete during the generous week break from the extremely stressful life events. Chinese New Year wouldn't be quite a nice one without having a nice and harmonious get together among family and friends (some people just have to strip off their disgusting facade and learn to truly care again).

This is Evelyn, sincerely wishing all folks out there a Happy Chinese New Year.

Peace.

Hope is some extraordinary spiritual grace that God gives us to control our fears, not to oust them. - Vincent McNabb

rawr

2011-01-25T16:49:00.000-08:00

hell yea!
Mroar~

okthxbye.

"Bride Knight"

2011-01-25T05:14:00.000-08:00

Those are the moments I won't give up for anything else...

Just a little something that I have to get out of my head and I don't want to do it in Twitter cause I tweeted a lot today. :/

"You know what you can do? You can stuff your head into the toilet bowl, and flush the hell out of yourself. Then you can go around and try to convince people that you have a well functional mind cause you just proved that you don't."

I know its nonsensical and random but it has been bothering me so much since just now.

Do any of you actually talk to yourself? As in literally talking like you're talking to somebody but the conversation is all directed towards yourself. As in you ask the question and you answer yourself.

Oh no confession time! I do. Especially in the shower. I'm crazy! I'm schizophrenic! *gasp*

And it is in the shower, when all the most random and nonsensical stuffs will come attacking my mind. You know like how the psychologists will say that the unconscious will manifest your mind and your dreams when you sleep? It seems like the unconscious is manifesting my mind as well when I shower! Okay now I'm convinced that I'm losing my mind a little.

Anyway, today's Developmental Psychology lecture was a little better than the last. I did not fall asleep. But something else was more distracting than ever! It was a girls hair. It was curled. And it has some white unknown particles on it! Not a few but a lot! We were guessing that its her scalp. Ewww... Disgusting!

Oh... *rewind rewind*

Sleep wasn't good at all. Had very disturbed sleep patterns since the last few days. I'm officially zombified.

*rewind some more*

I went to Singapore last Wednesday evening and came back on Sunday night.

Main reason: my grandmother's birthday.

Main joy: bought two really adorable men T-shirts for myself from a shop called Vintage:FB. But who cares? Its so cute that even though its over-sized (obviously), i'll still wear it to public area. Bleh...

Main amusement: the MRT announcer. "Next station, Novena" :D Bliss.

Nothing else special besides liking some childish moments with the sister.

*forward forward forward*

Watched Easy A. Its kinda a nice movie. I pity the character.

Rant of the day: Study please. You have a quiz tomorrow. kthxbai.

Pei Ning

contradiction?

2011-01-18T04:57:00.000-08:00

Now listening - Mum talking on the phone -.-

from title:

Very much thank you.

Recently, I've been fighting a strong urge to not procrastinate and work hard for this semester b'sides being a goddamn slacker like I used to. Heh, by saying that, I feel like Hercules or some awesome kick-ass warrior. But, no. I'm not one.

Plus, there's been a great contradiction for me to stop complaining and ranting at whoever I bump into about my university application and START APPLYING damn it.

I apologize for the vulgarity because I am so darn tired and frustrated in dealing with such contradictions.

Its not funny anymore. Seriously. I should've done it much earlier.

Too late for regrets. Too late to die young.

Oh so this morning's Developmental Psychology class was utterly boring that I fell asleep. There was a funny yet embarrassing moment which I will come to that later. So basically the lecturer was going on about bearing a child, child labor, child birth. Too much of emphasis that I was disgusted. Quite. Pretty sure Amanda was too.

At one point of time I was too tired to continue listening to her sleep-inducing speech that I let my head rest on my arm and slept. I am pretty sure I fell asleep. Then suddenly out of nowhere, I jerked myself awake. It was so funny as if I was scrambling to find a shore in the midst of drowning in a pool of water. Now when I think back, I can't stop laughing my ass off. It was that funny.

Incident spectator: Amanda & Gilberto :D

Amanda came to hold me still immediately after I jerked. Aww so nice of her. But ITS SO FUNNY!

Was rushing with time as I anxiously waited for my turn to come behind that never-ending cue at the bursary. The lady who grumbles a lot came back from her lunch break and commented on how people like to pay on the last day. Woman! Its not even the last day of payment la! Get your facts right. -.-

Mummy came to pick me up from main block at 1.30pm to the hospital for my last immunization injection for Hepatitis B. Pardon the weird me; oh how I LOVE injections. :D

Rushed back to college, just in time for my Calculus replacement class. At the beginning was quite a little of a struggle but after that, it was slightly okay because we were doing Differentiation, something we have already done back in high school. Then the questions became tougher and I was stuck again. Oh well. Whoever said Calculus was easy was a freak. Just proven my point, Cassandra is a freak. kthxbai.

CK dropped by college and brought Sarah, Lynn and I out to Mid Valley for food. Was my late lunch. Really late. It was already five something then. So I ate a packet of nasi lemak and a kuih at Nyonya Colors and shared a box of chilly fries with them at Carl's Jr. Dinner at seven as usual and I can still eat my food. Just proves how hungry I was.

From seven something in the morning till five something in the evening, just two packets of biscuit to keep the stomach full. How can?

Faith consists in believing when it is beyond the power of reason to believe. - Voltaire

EvelynLee.

discontentment.

2011-01-16T09:19:00.000-08:00

Like A Star - TaeYeon & The One

Officially, i'm still 18. Two more years to finally step out of my teenage life.

But (oh damn i hate buts cause the rest of the sentences always suck. Always!), technically, I have to act like a 19 year old already when I just turned 18 less than a month ago! That sucked. December babies will totally understand what I'm talking about.

When people start asking, how old are you, my natural response will be 18 (for now) cause obviously I just turned 18 and its not wrong to say that. Just tell me how you're gonna tell people you're 19 year old when you're barely there?

Oh sorry I'm beating round the bush and going about in circles over the same thing. Ah... just what you'll get when a girl starts rambling on and on that you wanna give her a slap right there in her bitchy face. Okay I did not just said that. *cancels cancels*

But I digress. I was talking about how... Oh nevermind, i've finished what I needed to say.

So, university application hasn't been looking up for me. First cause I'm still procrastinating like A LOT. Second cause I got ffk-ed by my counselor who was supposed to meet me on Friday morning cause we made an appointment and she confirmed it. Oh well, just my luck. Friday wasn't quite a good day to me yet it wasn't quite bad. I started like hell, but turned out to be quite okay in the end. Watched some really funny and touching local production movie in the cinema. Thumbs up. Forgotten the movie title but it was something with the word sky in it.

Mehh, its Monday all over again. I shall come up with something more meaningful and less lifeless like this post soon so that I can kick this down and prevent scaring people off my site. Till then!

Peace out.

cliché

2011-01-12T07:15:00.000-08:00

Pergi - Aizat

You know, it is such a cliché to start a class by saying, "Hello everyone. This is ... class. My name is ... ."

You know, it is such a cliché to end one by saying, "Okay we shall stop here. I shall see you in the next class."

Can't the lecturers think of something different to say? Something less predictable. Something sophisticated to catch the students' attention. Something interesting.

Something like, "So, the sky is clear today and hope that helps you concentrate in class better! *grins* I'm ... .Shall we begin now by going through the course outline? *grins again* "

Something like, "Any questions to ask before I dismiss the class so that we can all go home and sleep?" to end the class.

I really liked how Dr. O'Neal ended her Introduction to Research Methods class last semester by throwing chocolates to the class. Really.Sophisticatedly.Uniquely.Different

Previously, I was in such bad dilemma in deciding what subjects to take for this semester. Seems like there are plenty of subjects for me to take for this semester, hence, I was indecisive. After my last trial class this morning, I made my decision so abruptly and felt pretty confident with it that it was a little scary. It was Research Methods class with Winnie Chong. Of course, she is a very very good lecturer. There's no doubt to it. But the fact that I have no choice but to pay a 110% attention during her classes is stressing me out. There's no possible way that I can possibly do that. Today was the first class. Bad enough, she already had 3 quizzes given right on the spot. Short time constraint. Extreme obsessive compulsive disorder. I just can't take classes like that. Too much of stress that my stress level meter will literally explode. Plus, if i were to take this subject, that will mean that I would have to attend 3 classes which stretch from 8am till 6pm, all three classes will eventually lead to brain fried brain dead moments. So its a bad idea after all.

Class today was really stressful.

Everything flashed past and every scene comes in so abruptly and bombs you in the face and leaves just like that. Too much for the brain to take in. Definitely not a class where you get too bored and start dozing off. Definitely not a very wise thing to do to fall asleep during class.

You know, it is such a cliché to start the year with New Year resolution which includes getting good grades this year and stop slacking or study harder than I used to. Well, I don't usually have New Year's resolution but I do, tell myself at the beginning of every year, every semester that I will study harder and more consistently this semester to get better grades than I used to. I do! Turned out, last minute things, still, remain as components in completing my courses. I have to change that. With Mitchell by my side. I shall survive Calculus. With Amanda by my side, I shall survive History of Western Civilization, Developmental Psychology and Abnormal Psychology. I shall survive this semester. *high hopes* :)

Note: Today my college mate told me that my Chinese name is so cute. *:)

Lovely, Pei Ning.

1, 2, 3 !

2011-01-08T07:47:00.000-08:00

N-Dubz ft. Bodyrox - We Dance On

Today is the 8th of January, 2011. It may be just another ordinary day for many of you out there but it certainly is not for me.

Today, is Justin's birthday. He turned 20 today! Not to tease but sad for him. His age does not start with a one in front no more. *please insert expression here*

Today, is my TOEFL examination day. Err... Basically, I think I screwed up some parts here and there. I have no idea what happened because everything was happening so fast and all I could do was to read, listen, think, write and speak so fast while keeping track of the time remaining. Chaotic. I saw some people speaking so loudly and animatedly with all the hand gestures and forced out accent. Pretty weird. Sean was on my right while Cassandra was on my eight o'clock. Everything went fast and at the end of it, I wasn't even sure if I've done alright or not. At the end of the test, they asked to either report or cancel your answers. I was so scared that I accidentally click on CANCEL and there goes my answers and efforts. Well, I made sure I click on the right one. Still a little worried over that though. I never liked questions like that where one answer can affect a whole lot of things. Never.

Today, I hung out with Clement. It always has been nice, hanging out with him. Somehow. One way or another. Ate out at Manhattan. Seafood Chowder soup, Fish and Chips with Dory, iced lemon tea, and I'm officially stuffed. Skipped dinner cause I was so full. Plus, lunch was later than usual.

Today, had fun chatting with friends online. Haven't done that in quite a while I guess.

Today, found out that my high school friends actually gotten me a birthday present. I am so touched and overwhelmed, despite not yet, seen the present itself. After all, its my FIRST ever time, receiving present from my friends for my birthday. Really happy. Thank you peeps. Love you all.

Today, wasn't that bad of a day after all. Notwithstanding having to wake up earlier than usual for the TOEFL test.

Today, are one of the days I will anticipate and hope for in the future.

Till then, xoxo

candy muffins; -

2011-01-06T08:24:00.000-08:00

Peaches - New Heights

You know how irony always occur in our lives?

Like how young kids will hope their growth process will speed up so that they can be adults sooner? Like how when you are in your first few years of elementary school, you hope to be 12 and then get on with high school? Like how when you are 12 you hope time pass faster so that you can be 18 in no time?

In a complete opposite perception, it is ironic how when you turn 18, you wish you never turned 18. You wish to turn back time so that you can go back to your joyous childhood days. Like as you grow older, you tend to reminisce more. Like when you are finally in your 70s, you always look back into your past and say 'those were the days'.

I guess even though I go through slight bits and pieces of these kinds of dilemmas, I am proud to say that I was a true kid. I remember not always thinking about how if I were 18, how if I were a grown up instead of a young kid then. I just love how my childhood days passed by with such ease and carefree. Yet, now, I wish I never grew up. Though I know, just as everyone else, growing is inevitable, something we cannot put a stop to, unfortunately. As I am writing, Jeremy tweeted, 'dont wanna move on. sometimes i wanna stay at a certain point, and enjoy the breeze.' Really. There's no doubt to that statement, that hope, that wish, that crave.

I can't seem to drown myself into the cruel fact, that I am already 18, I should act, think, plan like an adult right now. I don't want to grow up. I want to stay young forever like song by Jay-Z.

Just moments ago, when I was in the shower, I realized I was playing with bubbles, just like how I usually do back then. But when the bubbles burst and disappear in mid-air, I was snapped back into the present along with the burst bubble. Oh how disappointed I was then.

Selfishly, I want time to freeze at present. I want my childhood back. :'(

You know how dilemmas always occur in our lives?

Like how when you need to make decision between two things you want so badly? Like how you need to select from a wide variety of collection? Like how you are forced to make a choice when you personally dread to and wish you never had to?

Dilemmas.

I never had such bad dilemma in choosing my subject since my first semester in college. Really. Yet this time round, I almost driven myself nuts making choices between subjects. The feeling? Not good at all. I certainly had a damn hard time deciding what combination of subjects that I need to take. I think so far, I have already switched my subjects for at least 5 times. Really crazy stuff. While others seemed to be fine with their subjects selection, I drowned in the process. Swallowed liters of water, bloated lungs, passed.

It feels different. Somehow.

Love, PeiNing.

broken bubble.

2011-01-02T08:24:00.000-08:00

Today My Life Begins – Bruno Mars

Don’t leave. Please. Stay. Its nice to be in the dark, right? You can relax a little. No brittle smiles. No air kisses. No sarcasm. Forget the stress. The worry. The petty skirmishes. Life is too short. Too short for cruelty. Close your eyes. Embrace the moment

I am going to miss you a lot. Going to miss us being together a lot. Going to miss staring at your pretty face when we cam. Going to miss staring at you while you fall asleep. Going to miss sleeping on your lap while you sleep on mine when you’re tired. Going to miss stroking you as you fall asleep. Going to miss you, doing the same to me as I try to fall asleep through your beautiful distractions. Going to miss tickling you at your palm giving you that tingly feeling. Going to miss you, tickling me back so that I get to enjoy that tingly feeling as well. Going to miss blowing into your ears while you cringe to it almost every time. Going to miss you, blowing into mine so furiously as you lock me in your arms when I try to escape from it. Going to miss you, locking gaze into my eyes as I try to avoid it awkwardly when I love so much about it. Going to miss dirty talking with you because nothing else feels better knowing that you only do so to ease my throbbing headaches. Going to miss you, giving me virtual kisses whenever clock shows a series of ones. Going to miss you, wishing me good night with all the sweetest words a girl ever wish to hear. Going to miss you, calling me names that remind me of how much I am loved. Going to miss you, giving me butterflies over and over again through you littlest actions. Going to miss you, making my heart skip beats as you do things I can never dream of when I least expected. Going to miss you, holding my hands constantly when we together, as if knowing that I adore holding yours. Going to miss feeling safe whenever you tighten your grip on mine as we approach empty alleys. Going to miss kissing you because it means way more than just some simple lip therapy that you give me. Going to miss hugging you, when all I feel is that the world is crashing down on me and when I need emotional support badly. Going to miss lying down on your chest, hearing that calm heartbeat of yours as it calms mine at the same time. Going to miss you, randomly bringing up topics that skip by so fast that I lose track and start laughing helplessly. Going to miss smiling crazily every time we chat on msn. Going to miss staring at your beautiful picture that pops up every time I receive a text message from you. Going to miss how you always manage to reassure me whenever there’s doubt. Going to miss your sweet talks that never fail to make my heart melt and all mushy inside. Going to miss doodling on the never ending draft on blogger, though never ending seems like it has finally meet its end now. Going to miss how everything about you, constantly reminds me of how lucky a girl I am. The list goes on, but one thing for sure, I am definitely going to miss every single thing about us being together. I never regretted from the first day we met.

Yours truly,

the girl who misses the past.

Rewind. Forward.

2011-01-02T00:40:00.000-08:00

Dear diary,

Woke up at 11am feeling utterly groggy. Dragged myself out of bed to turn off the damned alarm and proceed to the bathroom to remove the retainer when all I wanted to do was to fall back to bed and hibernate for the next few hours till sun’s high up. I stared into the mirror, that swollen eyes of mine don’t look familiar at all. Guess I have never cried that much till those pair of eyes goes out of shape. I stupidly allowed my imagination to run back into the path of memories and realized tears once again, moist my cheeks as they broke free from the constraints of the lashes.

It ended. Along with the preceding year. I pulled the trigger, based on impulse, knowing that I can no longer go on with it as it will only tear down the walls I have built to protect my vulnerable self from the existing violence in the outside world. I figured at that moment, before I break free into the open space of emotional turbulence, that I desperately need a break, a break from the worst-case scenario. I figured if I don’t save myself in time, I would probably rupture in time to come. I figured the necessity to do the necessary. I figured.

I fell, along with the night that dawn. Along with the daylight that sinks, I fell. So much that I have dreamt that it is chaotic in the dreamland I fell into, just as the world outside of my comfort sheets. Just when I realized, I can’t just let it go at that moment. Not yet. I wish it wasn’t over. But it did in the end. Unfortunately. Fortunately. Echoes of fireworks sounded from a distant. In my head, I pictured how brilliantly beautiful and breathtaking they will look to everybody in that clear dark sky. In my head, I pictured how the fireworks explode in the sky, bringing away the bad omen that reigned over the lives of many, ushering the new year with a brighter perspective. As the old saying says, a new year, a new chapter.

So, I walked down the memory lane. Reminisced about everything all the way from the beginning. Tears streaked down my face so many times I didn’t care anymore. All I wish is to bring back those moments that once were precious to me and still are precious. In the end, it all amounted to one tacit confession, that my love for you, is deeper than you ever thought it would be, deeper than any root you can possibly find. And I need you to know, you are hurting me inside out, more than any pain any cuts or bruises can ever cause. You are the reason to my joy, my pain, my happiness, my despair. You are all the reason I ever needed.

In the end, I just need you to know. I love you. Even though it means to endure through the pain. I just need to do it from a distance, so that I save you, and save myself from everything that may be troubling and that may cause the rapids.

I am sorry from the beginning. I truly am. And, I love you from the beginning. I truly do.

Yours truthfully,

Lee Pei Ning.

Day 365.

2010-12-30T08:00:00.000-08:00

Today. Last day of the year.

I'd usually have loads to write about when it comes to this. But this time round, I turned the corner to find dead end.

Overwhelmed with tons of feelings. Whether feelings that will bring smiles. Whether feelings that will bring tears. Though it seems to me those carrying with them the negative vibe is currently dominating my mood and playing tricks with my mind. While the others quickly scrambled into their hiding spot, keeping safe from the cursed.

Doesn't feel good at all. Always kept far away from the desired. It feels like there is an invisible force field, keeping guard, the invincible aura, playing role of that Great Wall of China. There's just so much a young heart can take. Such a pity. Pathetic.

The year passed by swiftly, irrefutably.

So much to reminisce about. Too much to be able to contain it in this virtual diary of mine. Well, I just hope they all stay lingering in my mind till my face turns wrinkly and hair turns snow white. Okay that might sound a little crazy since we don't even know our fate and whether fellow Earthlings can survive year 2012 as stated in the mystery calender by the Mayans. Yeah we don't.

Well, what a way to end the year.

However, I always believe the preceding year is always not as good as the current and hence, year 2011 will be a better one. So put up a great smile and usher the new year with a bright and positive heart.

I think I miss you too much

That's why my heart aches

That's why my eyes tears

To the sight of your beautiful features

Happy New Year Folks.

Signing out for the year, PeiNingLee.

ADP Annual Ball 2010.

2010-12-30T05:39:00.000-08:00

Careful – Paramore

Well, I was planning to write a long post for this but due to my endless procrastination, I sorta lost the inspiration to do so since it was long time ago. Well, feels like its more than a month ago.

So, the event was on the 19th of November, Friday. I can still remember vividly that day was Bio group report submission due date. Well, the whole week itself was filled with many assignment submission and it didn’t feel like prom is nearing at all. Not to me, not to my friends. Even my dress, accessories and heels were all a last minute thing. Was too busy with course works.

The event was held in Park Royal. Before that, washed and blew my hair at a saloon Justin’s friend was working at.

Dressed in the short black flowing dress and a pair of silver strap heels, I walked out of the ladies and all I need then was make up to be fully presentable. No. I don’t know how to do it myself but thankfully, I have all my girlfriends to save my face. First was Cassandra, who helped me with the eyeliner. Then Leanne to help with the touch up. Then back to Cassandra with the eye shadow. Then a few more with I don’t remember who. Sorry I can’t remember you and it wasn’t entirely my fault because I was shouted at whenever I attempt to open my eyes or even try to peer through the little slit I forced open to see what was going on. Yeah they raised their voices at me :’( Nah but I won’t blame them, they just excited for me since they never seen me in makeup. :D

Everything was fine and fun. Awkward moment was when they opened the dance floor for couples and for everyone else. Scarcely a few went up and danced their heart out. Well, that was mainly because the song prepared by the DJ weren’t always prefect for the atmosphere. Thumbs down.

The fun parts were the photo taking sessions in between everything and the hangout session outside of the ballroom. :)

After the prom was some settling unfinished things then off to club at Sheraton for the after party in the heavy downpour. Scary. Never been in KL when it floods and my first time just had to be in the middle of the night in a small car. Darn afraid that the car will just fail on us. Reached there to find everyone hanging around the hotel lobby. So the after party was cancelled due to lousy planning. Its heading home after that.

Removed the makeup and took a warm shower before lying down on the sofa, awaiting text message from the gentleman who sent me home just to make sure he made it home safe. Crawled back to cuddle with my huggies under the nice warm sheet and fell deep into dreamland.

The End.

Highland Haven Retreat.

2010-12-20T23:32:00.000-08:00

Embers – Helen Jane Long

Imagine three families with the surname Lee, taking a trip up to Cameron Highlands. Imagine three cars, cruising down the highway in a perfect sequence of silver, black and white. Imagine a rather heavy meal in every subsequent three hours. :)

Saturday, 4th September was the day when we went up to Cameron Highlands. Oh yeah, this is a very delayed post. Hmm… so the two families I went with were all big people. They were like half giants to my family only because we appear minuscule standing alongside them, like dwarfs. Big people, big appetite, high metabolism rate. That explains the very frequent heavy meals throughout the trip. :P

We checked in at Ye Olde Smokehouse.

The authentic English Tudor style hotel was originally built in 1939. The entire building was surrounded by green grass, fountain and white steel benches, beautifully decorated by myriad species of colored flowering blossoms. The tea garden concept provides a much laid-back and tranquil ambience. Having sitting on the bench, sipping sips of English tea, enjoying the gentle warmth of the sun embracing your skin while cold breeze sweeps past your cheeks to counter the heat. Its sheers bliss. Really.

The interior design of the Smokehouse was stunning as well, completed with many interesting collections including horseshoe collection and wall hanging plates. I personally adore such collection and find them very intriguing and pretty.

English breakfast in the morning was very filling. It is inclusive in the price you pay for the stay there. Scones are considered rather popular in Cameron Highlands and in the traditional English breakfast, you will get to taste the usual English delicacies. They also serve tea with scones, cream and homemade strawberry jam.

So basically, its snapping pictures all the way for me alongside the two uncles who were also holding their DSLRs. Live tutor. Very helpful. :D

We stopped by the teahouse halfway up the mountain and halfway down the mountain, just like any other time. Snapped pictures of the breath-taking scenery. I adore the tea plantation. Very beautiful.

There is no beauty, no ugliness, just existence.

Love forever and always,

LeePeiNing

and so,

2010-12-16T06:05:00.000-08:00

On My Way Here - Clay Aiken

And so, life goes on.

Two years ago, at this time, I am already in bed. Nice and warm. Oh if you are thinking about nice spring bed with superb comfy quilt cover, you are wrong. I was sleeping on the nicely heated mat, covered with thick cotton blankets, while the temperature outside was just a few degree Celsius to freezing point for water. Yeap it definitely felt as good as how you imagine it to be.
Only problem I had then was that I constantly allow my devious imagination to run wild. Relating the typical Japanese shed to the freakylicious Japanese ghost movie - Ju-On.
Yeap, I was living in a shed. An isolated building where my host family only came to for meals downstairs. It was small. I even had to clean all the thick layers of dust before settling in. Anyway, I'm drifting...
Staring at my YE blazer hanging five feet above from the tip of my toes, and the shadows of the pine trees swaying along with the rhythm of the winter breeze formed on the white surface of the cupboard, I was certain that I felt goosebumps growing out from the surface of my arms.

I was then, in Chiba, Japan, under a Lion's Club Youth Exchange Program. A nicer and more prestigious way to put it is that I was once a Malaysian Youth Ambassador!

Heh... sounds really cool huh? I know I know. *does the hand gestures* :)
Its a wonder how time flies.
.

I never really liked holidays, especially long holidays. Never really look forward to one.
Reason being that
I won't be seeing people I miss seeing. You get what I mean?
I won't be seeing my friends as often as how I do during schooling days. I love my friends. They are gorgeous people.
I don't get to go for yum cha sessions with them friends during break time.
Being at home, not really a good thing. Yeap, there certainly are days where I can just lie around, be a couch potato in my baggy shirt, comfy shorts and hair in a messy bun and no one gives a damn about it. Those are the days I don't mind at all!
Being at home, feeling incredibly bored. Aimless, yet not allowed to leave the home. That sucks. Just had to sit in front of the computer for some virtual indulgence while waiting for my skin to grow on the chair I sit on.
Being at home, doing all the house chores. That sucks to the core. No further comments on that.

On a brighter and more positive perspective, I get to go out! Christmas holiday is coming soon too. I adore Christmas decorations. So beautiful. Bring smile to my face. :)

p.s.: Always keep your hopes up high, the best has yet to come. xx

Stay tuned for more posts! Toodleloo~

Fluffy Unicorn?

2010-12-13T04:55:00.000-08:00

Hola!

1. to justify my absence, I was having my exams...

2. Just a brief recap about my finals, everything has been going well until the Psychology papers come. Compared to Research Methods, Human Personality was way tougher. It was out to kill! Just as the mid-term for it, everybody died after that paper. May we rest in peace.

3. So, I have serious sleep deprivation just as any other times during exam. I remember saying that exams totally suck the daylight out of me, leaving me a dried up skeleton at the end of the day.

I see my face condition deteriorating. Now it feels so rough and dry. I guess I have to catch up a lot on my beauty sleep! *snores snores*

4. Now that exam is over, I have this heavy weight off my shoulders. But, in the meantime, I should really start researching on my universities and see to the applications as well. Can't be procrastinating all the time. Hey, I am becoming a bigger procrastinator as time passes. Noooo not good.

5. And no, I haven't taken my Toefl yet. Going to take it the first thing next year. Make time for practice, Pei Ning. Stop slacking off please thank you.

6. Christmas is coming! I really need to go to shopping malls and admire the beautiful Christmas decorations. Yeah, 13 days into December and I haven't seen a single Christmas decoration yet. Just proves how long I have been staying at home like a total study freak.

7. It is really sad. Come to think that my holiday only lasts for 3 weeks. Forcefully.

8. I'm turning 18 soon. Well, I feel quite scared and nervous. I'm not a birthday person. Definitely not. Turning 18 though, sounds good to me. :)

9. I feel so outdated. Really! The last movie I watched in the cinema? *nervous laughter* You don't want to know. Its ages away. Yeah I need to watch movies. Movies!

10. Just to make the list look perfect, it has to end at ten. But I have nothing to talk about already. Hmm... This holiday is going to be interesting. I promise I will post those that I missed throughout the year. Oh yes that includes post for my trip to Egypt! Eeee I'm a real procrastinator.

Bubble face! *boink boink*

Please pardon my scrap thoughts.

& randomness

Till then!

Lovely, Pei Ning

♥♥♥

fetishism.

2010-12-02T22:57:00.000-08:00

Clearly, I haven’t been pushing myself hard enough because I haven’t been studying much. Biology paper is on Monday, yet, I barely know a few facts about it. I think it is time to feel the tension build up and feel the stress.

I need more motivation. I need less distraction. That’s what I need. Badly.

If you remember my counseling experience from the last post before this, I’m so proud and ecstatic to say that it is finally over. Well, I was this close to being late to the last session.

An hour before it, Justin and I decided to walk over to Hock Lee’s at Jalan Batai for lunch. It was approximately seven minutes walk there under the hot sun. Nonetheless, a great company just makes everything great and laid back. So we stopped by at a typical Chinese coffee shop and ordered Wan Tan Mee. While we chatted, I can’t stop myself from taking glances off the clock hanging on the wall. I sort of like how they haven’t painted the walls in many years and that the paint now turned yellowish, rendering the onceuponatimeinthe60s vibe. :)

Anyway, 15 minutes passed and our food weren’t here yet, so I went to check on it and that lady literally replied me in a rather frustrated tone that she is preparing it. I went back to my place opposite of Justin’s with that wthinmyface expression. So we waited again. Another five minutes passed and I was quite fidgety then already because my counseling session starts in less than half an hour’s time. I went over to check for the the second time and that aunty gave me the same tone, unfriendly pissed reply. At that point of time, I really felt like cancelling the order and stomp off. Guhh…

In the end, I made it on time to the session and Father Philip told me that this counseling session will be a relaxing one. Being the curious and rebellious me, I asked him, “Why is that so?” in a rather sarcastic tone, since that was what he always asks me in the past three sessions. Oh and it went well, with less awkward moments in between. As promised, I told him how I was stressed over the counseling sessions before, and everything was back to square one again. All the frivolous questioning.

Finally my session ended earlier than expected and I realized it only lasted approximately 45 minutes. Nevertheless, my session was still the longest among the four of us who went for counseling too. I guess he just likes to talk to me that’s all. -.-

Justin went in and came out. He began telling me how Father Philip was giving him a massage at the shoulder area where he hurt himself. I thought, that was gay, and spent the next 15 minutes thinking Father Philip is gay while staring at Justin with that über-disgusted look plastered across my face. It was epic.

Finals starts next Monday and ends a week after. Wish me luck.

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird itself
But when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours
We join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love

Silent moments with you isn’t awkward

Its beautiful

All of a sudden I realized

I was helpless and fragile

Yet only able to succumb to your great force and power of love

Till then,

Love.

Happy Solar Head-bobby thingy

2010-11-30T05:51:00.000-08:00

Yep, the solar head bobby thingy in my room is finally bobbing again.

It has to be placed on a totally flat surface before it actually works and finally after i dunno how long...

its moving again!

Anyways, feeling pretty tired these days since the finals is coming and stuff

and if you actually read about the counselling sessions Evelyn has been writing about, even I feel the pressure from it..

sure I walk in and talk crap with the dude but still there is only so many issues I can think of...

pretty glad that it will be ending soon and hell no I aint gonna be continuing.

Finals are coming, so that adds to the extra stress. Bet everyone says this but, heck i'll say it again

time is passing so fast.

Till I think of anything else to blog about,

Thanksgiving = Food = Good *:)

2010-11-27T04:32:00.000-08:00

Shed A Tear - RyanHiga & friends

I didn't come up with this equation. It was Kyian, the emcee for the night, who did. Very random and a hundred percent true! Everyone cheered to that. *:)

It was staying back for approximately 4 hours after class and counselling session for this party. I would say all I anticipated was the food. They promised us turkey from Victoria Station and a very scrumptious meal in the name of a Thanksgiving party! That should, or must be able to satiate my cravings for delicious food.

Kudos to American Eagle club, which was kind enough to take up the job of organizing this event. And also, they were also 'kind' enough to leave us salivating for godknowshowlong with the nicely planned agenda by implementing loads of suspense in it.

Oh and while I was watching the performances, it hit me that I am actually in a Thanksgiving party and not other else. Of the seven performances that they had that night, four of them are Indian performances. I'm not being racist, but what has Indian dances got to do with Thanksgiving? Though I especially enjoy the performance by the lecturers. hawt!

Another performance was by an African dude who self-proclaimed as an adopted son? of Jabbawockeez, the kick-ass awesome dance crew. Well, he's definitely got some cool moves over there, but his style? Way out of a Jabbawockeez's.

Besides, Just The Way You Are by Bruno Mars is definitely overplayed, overrated, overdosed. Yeah the lyrics are pretty flattering and the whole world seems to be so addicted to this song. Darn! Anymore of it and i am sure going to puke. Like, SERIOUSLY! guhhh...

Finally, they let us attack the food and before Kyian gets to finish his sentence, i'm up from my sit, galloping my way to the food section. Well, I heard Cassandra saying, "wtf Evelyn?" Sorry pal, that's me :D

The food was indeed delicious. Except that they served it with some rather queer and weird tasting drink and rootbeer-taste-alike corns.

After dinner was the lucky draw plus a few more performances and the utterly hilarious broken telephone game. Never laughed so hard in my entire life till my abdomen and diaphragm hurts hell and i felt like i'm dying laughing. Its that bad. No joke.

So after that, we went to Bangsar for a drink at one of the mamaks before heading home.

I'm a happy kid :)

EvelynLee

bubble brandy!

2010-11-26T09:31:00.000-08:00

As you can see, the title doesn't really make any sense at all. It originates from a random conversation I had with Justin in the beautiful evening during our walk to KPD E. He started telling me how he had a friend, whose dogs' names were Bubble and Brandy (yeah there are two dogs)

I have one thing in my mind right now, and it is bothering me, a great deal - my counseling sessions. So if you don't think you are going to be interested with it, that i'm going to talk about soon in the latter part of this post, you may close this window right now. No hard feelings since i won't know if you did it or not.

Aites. Well, initially, I signed up for these sessions with only one ultimate goal, which is to gain my bonus marks for Human Personality. And then soon after I found out that bonus points given was merely 2 marks. I stunned.

So morning started rather okay. Watched the fighting fish fight in Bio lab. Pretty amusing and scary. Never seen it before. Excuse the jakun speaking.

After that was the most dreaded counselling session with Father Philip. I really have no idea how to go through a counselling session without feeling agitated, frustrated & anxious.

The process goes in a perfect sequence, like this: Before entering the room - anxious; during the session - agitated; after the session - frustrated. Know why? The counselor freaking asks me to find problems in my life to share with him every single session we have together. I mean wth? Yet, the biggest problem is that I don't see that I currently have any major problems in my life! Damn. And he told me that he sees that i am a very bubbly, happy-go-lucky, easygoing and cheerful person.

Doesn't that just justify how I am not facing any major issues in my life because I know exactly how to manage my emotions and problems so that it doesn't affect me as much in my daily life?

Doesn't that just justify how i am not like the other problematic or imbecile clients that he may have counseled?

Doesn't that just mean that i am a very normal and positive person and should be encouraged to continue living the happy life i'm leading right now instead of trying to find a torn in my life which i don't think even exists?

Come on now. Get a grip!

Well, my current progress checklist:

~~- Counselling session 1~~

~~- Counselling session 2~~

~~- Counselling session 3~~

- Counselling session 4

One more session to go babe! And I so darn going to tell him that I really can't think of any problems I currently face in my life besides these counselling sessions. They are increasing my stress level, like, PROMINENTLY! So yeah. Go ahead and feel offended by the idea of it and ask me "why is that so? can you tell me more about it?" in that sort of Mandarin-speaking accent of yours. Bring it on. mroar

You may as well think that i'm a freak...

Evelynlpn.

panic-stricken

2010-11-23T09:06:00.000-08:00

Smile - Uncle Kracker

As the title suggests, I am indeed, panic-stricken. ADP Department finally released the time table for our final examination and guess what? I realized its not so far from present as I initially thought it would be. With so many things in hand and so many subjects and chapters to read up on, I don't think I actually have enough time to cover everything. I'm all stressed up right now that I think I have no idea where to begin from. Need not say, my mind is all fogged and blur. I can't think straight because of this sudden attack and stress. I told my friend, Joey. Our parents think that it is really sad that many people in their time don't get to opportunity to get educated. Hold there and think again. We, this new generation, although blessed with unrestricted opportunity to pursue higher education, we get all stressed up as well. Sigh. Isn't it tough just to be a proper human at all?

In the middle of our Research Methodology class, a few students went up to interrupt and began talking about their BPsych Annual Ball. Sounds like its some genuinely cool stuff compared to the one ADP Student Council organized. Plus, they are going to have their warm-up party at Mist Club. How cool's that? They even got the Psychology Department lecturers to perform on that night itself. Price is RM110. I think it is so gonna worth the money if anyone, anyone at all, were to attend it. Gilbert and Hiran were tempted. Amanda and I were speechless.

Sometimes, telling lies and fooling around may not be a bad thing after all. Just like how Gilbert, Amanda, Vanesse and I were fooling around with Hiran about how fun was ADP Annual Ball and the after party. We made up and exaggerated stories which didn't exist at all. Like how I got drunk and had fun with the items in the door gift (Durex condoms and sunscreens). Hiran was skeptical, obviously. It was hilarious, how we actually applied research methods on our conversation, talking about testing, re-test and reliability of our information. Had a good time laughing out loud. Life's great until after class when I got to know about the finals time table. Gah... everything just had to spoil the good moments.

It was pouring too. Managed to hop in my car just in time during the break in between two periods of heavy rain. The drive home was SCARY! Never driven in rainy days and my first time just had to be the worst. I made it home safe and sound anyway. Knocked out on the sofa but it was not for long. Still, it manage to energize and recharge my almost empty body-battery. Guess that explains why I'm still up and blogging :D

Despite all the chaos going on in my life, something still gives me hope ♥

LeePeiNing

end,

2010-11-17T09:10:00.000-08:00

imbecile. insecure. pathetic. paranoid.

Like all of a sudden you just left someone hanging and caused such a big fuss out of nothing? Ain't it obvious enough that this kind of childish silent treatment will only plague your loved ones? Got to stop this shit.

At the end of the day, I asked myself. Why so melodrama? I didn't know the answer to that.

Just simply feeling insecure, terrified.

I'm beginning to realize...

Just hang in there, i'm begging you.

i love you, x.

Haven't seen you for only a day

I miss you already

love &hearts,

2010-11-14T19:23:00.000-08:00

Our Song - Taylor Swift

Just few days ago I experienced this throbbing migraine which completely burned my left brain into ashes. Excruciating much.

After giving some thoughts, I hypothesized that it could be because of the peak level of stress I experienced the night before. With Human Personality assignment due on the next day, guilt of having one of my friends stay up late to submit our then, incomplete assignment to turnitin.com and the troubles some sissy bastard has been causing.

I think at that time, I felt like I was on the verge of exploding into thousand pieces of smithereens and nobody was there to pick me up and put me back into pieces. I would be then, like a messed up jigsaw puzzle, where people will just drift past me, showing no signs of compassion

Friday and Saturday were two consecutive days with things going on under SASA. Friday was a talk on the psychology of people's management by my beloved lecturer, Dr. Goh. He used to be my lecturer for Social Psychology and since then, I always thought he looks very much like a teddy bear, so cuddly I feel like squishing him. Yeap, its not like I have a crush on this particular lecturer but I think he's quite an eye candy for a lecturer and few of my friends actually agreed with me!

Nevertheless, Dr. Goh is such good lecturer he don't need his super cuddly looks to keep me awake. I even love the way he conducts his lectures and talks. Very professional and interesting.

Showing some signs of envy over here heh... But its true. *shows straight face*

On Saturday itself was the highly anticipated SASA Awards Day. Well, kinda.

Because this is when we give out certificates to our new SASA juniors of 2011 who will then, lead the SASA team besides to the SASA seniors of 2010.

Time to step down folks. We're old already.

Basically, everything went well and I got a scroll with my certificates in it, just like everyone else. So niceeee... but, what am I supposed to do with it? Clueless *shrugs*

Yesterday, I was supposed to wrap up all the ohistillhavelotsoftimetocompletemyassignment feeling and begin to work on the remaining parts of my Western Philosophy assignment. Alas, after having breakfast out at Kayu Nasi Kandar with my aunt, who left to Singapore after breakfast, uncle lizard and wife came over to my place to pick up something and dragged us out to Sunway Pyramid. I thought, oh maybe its a good opportunity for me to just scout for my dress and heels for ball on Friday. So I tagged along.

After lots of strolling around, trying out many dresses and heels, proceeded with looking at some really pretty looking winter trench (they leaving for Scotland on Tuesday), my mind sort of drifted away from the real intention of me being there. I actually felt like ditching ADP ball, ditching assignments, ditching classes, ditching everything pending in my to-do-list to go to some winter country. With them to Scotland would be great :)

Lunch at Fullhouse was a little less than satisfying. I would say the food there is just ordinary. Not worth the price I paid for. Though, I would suggest you try going there on weekdays instead where they have the super deals for set lunch, I think that is worth it. Headed to Coffee Bean for some really nice scones, muffins, cheesecake and of course, ice blended hazelnut coffee. mmm...

I was eventually stuffed in the end :D

Went home empty handed while mum got herself a nice blouse with a really sweet pink tone. I would say I have decided on the dress and heels and reserved it. Gonna go get it on Wednesday cause it would be then, cheaper! *:)

Happy feeling was not short-lived. It even endured past the struggles I went through in completing my Philosophy assignment. I am still a happy child. *smiles smiles*

Lovely,

feather bubbles;

2010-11-12T07:20:00.000-08:00

Dear Journal,

Mood: Rejuvenated, Hopeful

Weather: Gloomy

Song: Footprints in the Sand by Leona Lewis

And so they say, when you plan something, it doesn't always work out. So yesterday, I planned to blog as soon as I get home after dinner. Who knows. Headache since I reached college and it had gotten the best of me by dinner time. I was practically zombified by the time I showered and just crashed on my bed and knocked out. Well, kinda. At least I had some really nice dream with a pretty awkward and weird ending but that was besides the point.

12.30am...

Oh damn I woke up to this extremely bad migraine. I thought if I try to fall back into sleep, the pain will eventually fade away as I fall into slumber land. I was wrong. The pain was so extreme that I found myself whining in agony. I crawled over my sister and fell on the floor, trying to balance myself in the midst of the excruciating experience. The same thing kept on replaying at the back of my head - I need pills. I need pills. panadol... I NEED PANADOL... yet, all I was capable of doing was to sit there and trying to coordinate my muscles to my limbs. It was incredibly frustrating and I felt so helpless. mroar

I was more than relief when I heard my mum descending that flight of stairs. The rhythm as her sole landed on the wooden planks sounded like orchestra to me. So melodious. Well, at least she can help me find the right medicine I needed and save all the troubles that are gonna cause me if I were to look for it myself.

So I took my Panadol and dragged my footsteps back into my room and once more, collapsed in those warm sheets while my head continued to hurt. Oh, not to mention I teared, involuntarily. :'(

It was about fifteen till half an hour later till the medicine finally took effect and almost immediately, I fell back into deep sleep. Wasn't easy at all.

5.10am...

I woke up, almost like how those possessed people will when they suddenly open their eyes wide when sleeping and spent the next 2 hours with my eyes wide open. However, I was glad that the migraine was then, history and my heart was silent and peace. I grew tired of staying awake on bed in a horizontal position and fell asleep again zzzZZZ

Looking back, unfortunate events are not always negative and passive. At least, it gave me another thing to blog about. Doesn't it?

Today, someone brightened my day by giving me this...

"Hope this brightens your day! Go brighten someone else's!" :) :)

Toodleloo~

Evelyn

raindrops, sunshine

2010-11-05T09:05:00.000-07:00

Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer

Had a philosophical conversation with daddy over the dinner table just now, left me deep in contemplation.

One suggestion from daddy that the universe we live in, could probably be one mere atom of a greater being gives me the chills.

Isn't it scary that something's out there even though we are not aware of and that we are not alone in this universe?

Isn't it scary that if one bigger thing has to contain a smaller thing, this universe is a never ending thing as things gets bigger and bigger to contain bigger things to smaller things?

These thinking of the bigger picture simply make our daily problems and rantings very insignificant as we are just living our petty and pathetic life with many complains.

Isn't it good if our minds just remain in stagnation since young? Oh i wish...

Anyway, was reading Amanda's blog when I came across this analogy fun we had a few months back which i didn't have a chance to post it up. I'll just extract it from her blog. Can't really recall the exact thing anyway...

So here goes:

June 3rd

On the way to lunch, someone made a romantic analogy I thought absurd, so I was like 'that doesn't connect, it's as bad as 'you'll be the tree and i'll be the monkey' and somehow the analogy game began.

It started out relatively harmless, like

"You'll be the fish, I'll be the chips"

"You'll be short-sightedness, I'll be the glasses"

"You'll be the spaghetti, I'll be the sauce"

"You'll be the soil, I'll be the earthworm"

"You'll be the leaf, I'll be the toad" (What the?) et cetera <-- i remember saying that

Basically anything complementary that came into mind.

And then everything went downhill from there

"You'll be the poop, I'll be the toilet" (talk about killing the vibe)

"You'll be the ass, I'll be the panties" Eve came up with this. Naughty naughty

"You'll be the ****, I'll be the ******" kk completely censored. Deemed inappropriate for public knowledge. <-- I still remember this. :)

Lol okay i'm taking forever to complete this post. I don't know what else to say. So, till then~

Some stardust to remember you by...

Love.

Invisible.

2010-11-03T20:51:00.000-07:00

2012 - Jay Sean ft Nicki Minaj

Quote of the day : Hard work spotlights the character of people: some turn up their sleeves, some turn up their noses, and some don't turn up at all. - Sam Ewing

Something i don't always do, i'm doing it right now. Surprisingly. Blogging in the morning.

But, unlike the normal days too, i am very much energetic and hyped up albeit the mere four hours of sleep. I realized, the more sleep i get, the more tired i become (not in the long run though).

Yesterday night, I was feeling utterly frustrated and easily agitated by little things. As i was working on the assignment, myriad thoughts flashed past my mind, whether relevant or not.

Woot! Very tempted to write a piece of emotional, heartfelt and depressing post but the consequences are rather obvious and severe. Loved ones getting worried, anxious questions asked and perhaps some judgemental glances - oh this girl is having her pre-menstrual syndrome again, and she said it doesn't exist in her dictionary. pffttt...

Anyway, was working on Human Personality assignment the whole night till 6 in the morning. Though not quite efficient, as in the progress of it was very very slow, but i managed to finish my part. Just tell me how to be fast when there are just so many sources out there that you can refer to, all you aren't sure whether reliable or not, yet you have no other choices but to refer to them, and the frustrating citations you have to include when you have no idea on how to do it even. It is very frustrating you know...

Nevertheless, being in the mood saved it all. Fortunately, I had a thing going on in me, some sort of drive that says yes to staying up late to complete the assignment, something that kept me motivated the whole night. Of course, my playlist was being very helpful keeping my eyelids from closing down and also keeping my brain from shutting down on me. *:)

Guh I finally gotten back my Human Personality midterm marks and I felt like plunging down from the 9th floor I was at when I checked it. My heart sank the moment I saw my results. I think this is probably my worst result ever. EVER. I'm just so worried about my grades now.

Ish... There's just so many things out there to complete, yet so little time. Now I have two new wishes to be added to my wishlist whenever the clock strikes 11.11 or 1.11:

- I wish I can actually smile or grin every time I get back my results.

- I wish God gives me 48 hours a day to complete my things. I don't mind 48 hours days on normal occasions too! cause I will get to spend more more more time with you, stare stare stare at you. I know I know this is a very ridiculous and childish wish. but everyone has the right to wish for what they want, regardless whether their wishes come true or not.

I'm sorry for the lousy rants here cause I'm pretty sure 80% of the people reading this don't give a damn about what's going through my mind and how imbecile a kid i am being.

No, more like I doubt anyone will actually waste 3 minutes of their precious time reading the craps i wrote.

As for people who blogwalks: *clicks on my link, reads the first few sentences, sees where this post is leading to, 'oh another bitch rant', closes page* Ah so predictable...

EvelynLeePeiNing.

just as our heartbeats, your breaths synchronize with mine;

2010-10-29T10:05:00.000-07:00

Bad Day - Daniel Powter

As a complete contradiction to the song currently in my playlist, today was more than great. Ironic isn't it?

The day started with really heavy downpour. Chilly wind and gloomy sky. Weather like this makes me emotional yet weather like this is just perfect for cuddling with the warm sheets on that superbly comfortable bed. Bliss.

Biology lab today was a kill joy unfortunately. Reason being that I have to leave that place I can't get enough of to college for lab. :'(

Nevertheless, today's lab was a little different and fun mainly because it was flexible and we get to walk around the area to hunt for monocotyledon and dicotyledon plants (flowers and leaves). Back to the lab to examine the leaves under the light microscope. Saw some pretty cool leave patterns. Rather enlightening

Pizza Hut for lunch with Justin at Damansara Jaya delivery branch. Didn't have the set meal for two so we resolved something else. Got my hands on that new pizza with six different kinds of cheeses. Very satisfying (only applies to people who use hands to eat pizza instead of forks and knives). *:)

Remember where I talked about the Hennessy Artistry event on the previous post? (scroll down if you wish to confirm that you're blind)

Yeap so the post by Justin is up! Click Here

Hmm... something about snuggling up is unfathomably satisfying and addictive ♥

Aite I'm zoning out as I work on this post. Lots of long pauses in between each sentence just so you know. So weird.

Oh I love this song --> Beautiful Disaster by Kelly Clarkson

Plus, I'm so in love with the lyrics of Just The Way You Are by Bruno Mars. Girls, don't it just makes your heart flutter? Cause it does to mine :)

Happy Halloween Earthings!

&because there will be no reasons left for me to hate you whenever I stare at your beautiful face.

Till then lovely,

EvelynLee.

All About College…

2010-10-27T05:45:00.000-07:00

Hmm… close to 11 months since I entered college and of course, I have made some observations and drawn some pretty weird conclusions about college slash university.

1. College is such a small compound so it is not astonishing to meet at least two friends of yours when walking down the corridor or around the common area. As for me, I always bump into my A Levels and Foundation friends and of course, greet them as we brush pass each other. Yet, this frustrates my ADP friends as they think I know everyone in college and some even claimed that I am showing off how popular I am. I had a big facepalm moment. Oh yes.

2. When bumping into friends, I realized, small talks that we initiate always revolves around these few things.

“Are you having break right now” or “Do you have class right now”

“What time is your class” or “Do you still have class later”

“So what subjects you taking this semester”

“Are you having your exams now”

“What is your major” or “What course you taking”

Nevertheless, I love small talks! :)

3. College is all about glamour. Even the words they use to describe the daily basic things are fancier than average. Example?

Quiz = Test

Assignments = Homework

Lecturer = Teacher

Cafeteria = Canteen

Lecture Hall / Class = Classroom

Break = Recess

4. My friends, especially A Levels friends, are talking about university applications and completing personal statements. Heck I haven’t even started applying at all. I am panicking I guess? I don’t even know what I am supposed to do. *cries*

5. This semester is pretty hectic I would say. Biggest reason being that I have quiz every single week, which means more studying than usual. Pfftt I wish I could go back in time where I only study when there’s major exams around the corner. :(

6. I have two college friends who are very much similar to me. Not in fashion sense, but music. We would sing songs to complete our sentences or even start singing a random song together. I love hanging out with them cause we just love to SING! Besides,they are people I can afford to go crazy with. Gilbert, with all the impersonation of Agent Salt and him being my boss; Amanda, with all the cool and fancy fist pounds and the most random topic we talk about.

7. Oh college is where I pick up random tunes from people around me and get the songs stuck in my head for the rest of the day. Things get ugly especially when I have a quiz on that day:

question one: which of the following is a false statement of…

“you.make.me.feel.like.i’m.living.a.teenage.dream…”

*scratches head* *rereads question*

question one: which of the following… “feel.like.i’m.living.a.teenage.dream…”

*arghhh… rereads question*

Just so you know, I had a hard time finishing the paper. It was a struggle.

Lesson learnt: NEVER get a song stuck in your head before sitting for a quiz or exam. It will cause fatal consequences. Attempt at your own risk.

If you are thinking it only affects my exam, you guessing it wrongly. Even during class, the song can be pretty annoying.

Lecturer: Therefore, it is clear that when… “Snape, Snape, Severus Snape. Dumbledore!”

(tries to shrug it off…) *continues listening*

Lecturer: So it can be concluded that… “Ron, Ron, Ron Weasley! Hermoine, Hermoine…”

*bangs head at table*

In the end, I learnt nothing in class. Very good Pei Ning. Way to go!

Lesson Learnt: NEVER get a song stuck in your head before a lecture. It will cause fatal consequences. Attempt at your own risk.

8. Assignments due dates are closing in and I haven’t started on any yet! Kill me already.

9. Favorite hang out spot at college – Wisma HELP, level 9! :D

10. I don’t always have sufficient sleeping time ever since I enter college because everyone is a nocturnal! Everything comes alive at night.

*looks at the clock* 1am? Oh its okay. The night is still young… *continues fiddling with ze laptop*

People always think that the most painful thing is losing someone you love. The truth is… The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, forgetting that you are special too.

taa~ lovely.

ms. sunshine *:)

2010-10-23T12:43:00.000-07:00

Rain - Mika

Hmm... back to square one. Can't seem to find the right words to start this post.

Been writing a lot and deleting everything I wrote for so many times I feel a little frustrated now.

Anyway, I went to sleep at 11.30pm and woke up 2 hours later feeling groggy, hungry, hot and very much awake. Went to kitchen to dig for food and found digestive biscuits!

Ate five pieces of it and two pieces of bread with peanut butter spread. I guess I'm full and satisfied right now. *:)

Hennessy Artistry was just now. Hmm... Justin went for it and came back sober.

Should I have gone with him?

Nah... too late for regrets now since its OVER! Gotta stay tuned to his blog for updates about that event. :)

Here's the link if you haven't got it - http://yeejinlim.blogspot.com

Hmm... I'm slacking off gradually. I'm not actually studying when I need to.

I have Philosophy quiz on Monday and Research Methods quiz on Tuesday yet I haven't really read any of it a bit at all. I'm so scared yet I'm not working hard enough.

I guess I'll have to pull myself together and work really hard tomorrow. Hope I will still have the time since I might be out half the time celebrating my sister's 21 birthday.

On the brighter note, I have been learning a new piece; soundtrack from Final Fantasy.

Sister gave a very discouraging feedback saying that it sounds like a very gloomy and sad song, something you will most probably hear in a funeral. :(

Anyway, her comment didn't bother me that much since I still like that song very much and manage to learn it within a week; which is very fast compared to learning other pieces. Heh... well, more like because I can't seem to control myself from going back to the piano every two hours, hoping to perfect the imperfect and awkward playing.

Woot. Didn't realize the time. Its 3.33am right now. Shouldn't I be sleeping right now? Hmm... he is sleeping, everyone is sleeping. I guess now is the best time to study. Quiet and serene with no one to disturb. But I guess somehow I'm tired and am certain I can't stay awake for long. Should I attempt to study a little before hitting the sack or dive into bed just like that? Ishh... decisions.

Hmm... Of all the times when I'm free, my Research Methods lecturer don't upload the chapter for us. Until moments before when I checked, she uploaded it finally but I don't have the time to read up already. I guess not everything goes your way and its time for me to learn that shits happen in life.

Oh gosh realized the crap I'm talking about? I apologize because this is what happens to me when I am in a state of serious sleep deprivation. Shall be signing off right now!

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling in love with you I is what I had no control over.

Toodleloo, Love. *:)

Chicken chop & fairy dust

2010-10-22T08:29:00.000-07:00

A while back, was in college for extra classes and evelyn was also there so lepaks for a bit
Yea went to starbucks and met a friend there.
Sorry bout the watermarking..lazy to remove XD

Itu kawan that we met at starbucks

Itu saya, camwhoring as usual

I know, the title doesn't make sense at all.

& as our fingers entwine, rainbow shines ♥

2010-10-19T05:25:00.000-07:00

King of Anything – Sara Bareilles

There are moments where I am not entirely sure if I am doing the right thing. I guess it would be better to have at least the thinnest barrier to mark a territory which I name – Safety

…

Last Saturday was the random barbecue party at Justin’s place. Out of the blue, it was planned during a lunch break at the underground cafeteria of Wisma E&C last Monday. A Facebook event page was then created at night. Random much huh?

Went to Justin’s place after our Biology replacement class in the morning which lasted till 11.30am. Stopped by Giant to grab some stuffs. Began setting up around half past four. :)

Night started off with some finger foods like the deliciously made garlic bread while waiting for the arrival of others and most importantly, the meats. :D

Well, I can’t tell you exactly how delicious that garlic bread was but I am certain that approximately six of us finished the whole tray of it. Of course, we left another tray for the rest. *:)

Look at the happy faces… :D

I have no idea how to write this post so I shall just end it with some pictures after doodling a little more. So James was being James, enjoying himself at the barbecue pit while Sarah, Lynn at the other pit. Amanda and Michelle were hanging around that pit waiting to grab bites after foods were ready being them food-craving selves.
At one point, the marshmellows were brought out and many of us crowded around the pit. Love how the marshmellow will flow out and melt in your mouth after you bite deep into the crispy outer layer. *squeals* :D

Soon after, the card plus drinking game began with people getting drunk within split seconds; somebody like Woon Kheng. Some were just tipsy after a few shots.
That table was the most happening and noisy compared to the rest of the compound. After the game, Mayuri was sober, dancing and prancing around along with the beat of the music in her hyped up state; Phil was drunk and felt the necessity to convince the rest of us that he was not drunk just tipsy slash sober; Cassandra was very drunk till she knocked out a few times with some really crazy laughter in between each subconscious and unconscious state.
It is amazing how just Tiger beers, a bottle of Whisky, a bottle of lousy red wine and half a bottle of Tequila can create such madhouse. pffttt…

Cassandra was laughing hysterically, whining and puking so much that some of us freaked out a little. Lots of running around fetching Chinese tea for drunk people and clearing up the after party.
Waited till Cassandra’s heroic brother to come in his distorted “black horse” - proton wira to get the drunk princess before we all headed home about one in the morning.

Sad for me, suffered migraine for the night and the rest of the next day. Pain was excruciating that it affects the acuity of my senses. :(

It is better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.

Love,

PeiNing & YeeJin

manslaughter,

2010-10-14T07:58:00.000-07:00

Quote of the Day: A fair reputation is a plant, delicate in its nature and by no means rapid in its growth. It will not shoot up in a night like the gourd of the prophet, but like that gourd, it may perish in a night. - Jeremy Taylor

mroar...

Countless of sleepless nights left me a breathing skeleton. Been trying to stay up late at night to study for Human Personality but to no avail. Sleeping on the black couch in my living room for two consecutive nights. Gentle spin of the ceiling fan instead of the air-conditioned room. Everything, just for one trivial reason - studying for Human Personality. :(

You know, I must me nuts from the moment I made up my mind to major in Psychology. I must be crazy.

Midterm was extraordinarily tough. I realized, all the cramming and stress I picked up when studying, all for nothing. The questions turned out to be majority application of theories and critical thinking.

I died. Bet some of my coursemates died too. We died.

I just want to get good grades so that my credits are transferable! :(

I am in desperate need to get more sleep. Bad news is, the rapids ain't over yet. I still have Biology quiz on Monday and Philosophy quiz on Thursday. Not a week to look forward to.

Nevertheless, I can't wait for the barbecue party at Justin's place on Saturday notwithstanding the Biology replacement class in the morning on that day itself. Sigh...

Btw, congratulations to all the rescuers for their pouring efforts to save the trapped miners in Chile. This inevitably marks the rebirth of 33 previously despaired lives. This is more than mere miracles. Gives me chills at the sight of how everyone rejoice when those miners stepped out from the capsule to reunite with their loved ones. Gives me goosebumps at the sight of how happy tears streaked down faces of the spectators. This incident is definitely a historical one. One in a million, it is.

Also, this is one of the top searched news in Google. I'm looking at a webpage where people in the whole wide world are constantly updating their twitter on this rescuing of Chilean miners. Just so you know, updates are still swarming in like crazy.

LoveGivesMeHope

Last night, my boyfriend and I attended another school's football game.

His best friend was talking about how hot the girls were and how perfect they were.

My boyfriend brushed off the comment and whispered in my ear, "You're the most beautiful girl here and I love you."

His LGMH.

mixed feelings;

EvelynLee

fatigue, is me

2010-10-11T10:23:00.000-07:00

I obviously don't have sufficient time to actually finish up my studying and look at the time now! Its already 10 minutes past one and I'm still up, trying to study but to no avail. Guhh... situations like this just makes me feel like cursing at the wind. !@#$%^& to the wind...

I signed in to blogger, with the plan of ranting a little before proceeding to more cramming, just to find Justin blogging. How is that possible? One step ahead of me... grrrr

So here I am, listening to the beautiful harmony of the sniffing :)

While blogging, with my textbook spread out before the laptop.

Research Methodology midterm is less than 12 hours time. Brain dead moment. gg dot com dot my dot org dot gone case bbq wtf omg laser gun piew piew piew...

Heh. Could be longer but I don't want to have people staring at their computers with the wtfifeellikedyingoutoflameness face hung up on their faces. :)

Well, I guess that's about it. Human Personality is on Thursday afternoon.

I still have four chapters to go.

I am studying very slowly. Like a turtle. I'm a toadstool... :(

Back to studying then catch some sleep later. Till then~

Evelyn signing off. Peace out.

Superman!~

2010-10-11T10:02:00.000-07:00

Clearly I don't have the flare Evelyn has for titles..
and I'm pretty sure I cant write as creatively...

anywho..
These days very stress...
cause exams all over the place and being in the same class as Evelyn
I can tell you she sangat stress...
Me, not so much..
Since this is a personal post I don't have pics for it..sorry
I hate this stupid feeling of wanting to do everything when we are rushing for something, its like some bad human defect.
Okay rant over..need to continue studying...this is bad for health..mrawr...

YJ

break from hiatus.

2010-10-10T00:01:00.000-07:00

Hello peeps!

I always seem to be clarifying why I slack in blogging and the so-called legitimate reasons I have don't always vary so I'm just gonna shut up for now. :x

So as the previous post suggested, my blog has finally gotten itself a guest blogger. yay!

I bet some of the dumbest question is lingering in your heads right now so I'm going to try put you out of your miseries. This YeeJin dude is from my college, doing the same course, same major as I am, sorta. He is a really cool person to hang out with and we eventually got closer to each other weeks after we first got to know each other in my second semester - Sociology class.

Need not say, he's a really talented blogger and heck, makes me so envious of him and hence the inclusion of him as being part of my awesome space. *grins* A rather sociable person, he is, though I realized he likes his own private space more. Is that good or what? hahaha...

Anyway, I hope all of you out there will be happy with this new thing in my blog. I'm sorry if you don't but just so you know, I'm not going to kick him out of here any time soon, or perhaps, ever gonna kick him out, so please just bear with it thank you

Life has been going quite well with some pretty weird emotional swings here and there which led to not anger but silly teardrops. Nevertheless, that does not prove that I'm just another weird, paranoid, imbecile kid going through phases because I'm certainly not one of them. Oh and I have the worst dilemma of wanting to laze around, be a potato couch or get my ass of the aforementioned lazy attitude and study for this week's mid-term. I want to make sure my grades are good enough to be transferable. Just like all the other times when exam is nearing, it really sucks to be on the horns of a dilemma. Really.

Oh what am I still doing here. Of all the other times when I can blog, I chose today, now, when I am supposed to be studying! Well, I guess there's always exception to special days like this - 10.10.10!

Know what? I would schedule my post to publish at 10.10pm later at night but that would be so wannabe though I really like special days like today.

Happy 10.10.10, living beings on Earth!

Funny thing is, we were progressing so fast that before I can gather my mixed feelings, we are already happily together right now. :)

Oh heck I really have to stop being so indulgent and start studying. Till then... kthxbai

PeiNing.

Korean food at Ampang, other side of the world.

2010-10-09T02:36:00.000-07:00

Hello, not Evelyn here...
I'm YeeJin and I am guest blogging to keep the blog alive..
well sorta...

Anyways about a week back, brought Evelyn to go makan Korean
since she lives on the other side of the world and luckily korean food was on my side ^^

I guess she liked it?
Didn't manage to try soju tho..
I don't know what else more to say.

YJ

Kisses better than medicine.

Kryptonite.

2010-09-23T09:00:00.000-07:00

Feels Like Rain - Ke$ha

I was once a kid who fantasizes about the world I lived in. Not that I no longer fantasize right now, but I just don't do as much as I did. I feel like the things I used to fantasize about are coming true. One by one. Little by little. It freaks me out quite a bit, as I get goosebumps when I bring myself to ponder about it. Yet, at the same time, I am actually kinda thrilled&excited that the aforementioned is actually happening. Obviously, everything feels so surreal, making me feel like a character coming alive from a classic storybook. I guess I really got lucky this time and I got to tell you, heck it feels a thousand times better than hitting a jackpot.

Thought this may not actually last a lifetime, I'm glad that you make up a chapter of my life story.

P.S.: You are one unbelievably, impeccably lovely creature.

xoxo.

raindrops-

2010-09-17T09:45:00.000-07:00

Ever felt that life isn’t meaningful anymore because it is all theatrical and full of dramas? I'm tired of putting up that amiable facade. Right at this point of my life, I'm not even sure if I'm genuinely a happy person.

People grow tired out of repetitive daily routines of their lives. That’s how it was meant to be. That’s why we move on to a new phase when we eventually grow sick of the present. Philosophy of life says a gazillion things.

My philosophy tells me to move on and reminisce. Thus, I carry, always, the past with me no matter how high I climb, how far into life I venture. How sad is that?

Nevertheless, I’m rather glad that I picked up that principle since I don’t want to forget those who made me who I am today completely.

Only arrogant people does that, me think :(

Feels like God is pissing on us. It has been almost a week where it rains every single day. On top of that, it rains in the morning, or I would say, when dawn breaks, or even worse, before dawn. I despise the moist weather before and after a rainfall.

I loathe how the air is so humid that I can almost feel those minuscule water droplets landing on my skin making them sticky as gum.

Notwithstanding the dejection I feel when the sky is gloomy, indicating a rainfall coming soon, I still find hope in the rain. I like how there's a romantic vibe to walking in the rain.

I like how the raindrops splatter on the hard pavement and the rocky bitumen road. I love how mesmerizing the sight of water droplets splash up in beautiful pattern when they hit a hard surface and adore how hypnotizing the sounds of the raindrops when they land hard on the glasses or zinc rooftops.

This morning, I was walking alone in the rain. I imagined how the silhouette will look better with you beside me :)

♥

'I might get your heart racing in my skin-tight jeans, be your teenage dream tonight.

Let you put your hands on me in my skin-tight jeans, be your teenage dream tonight.'

Love, EvelynLee.

scraps;

2010-09-12T07:38:00.000-07:00

Sara Bareilles - Gravity

this thing right now, it is sucking up every ounce of energy remained in my fragile frame

today, i realized the importance of being in the mood when playing the piano because today, i cried because i was afraid the mood is destroyed. i cried playing the piano. :'( silly me

i was taking a brisk walk to a certain destination when you lagged behind. i was certain that i could've gone further without you. but you wouldn't let me do so. that made me realize that even if i'm very much far ahead from you, you will somehow manage to find your way back to my side

emo can always be associated to silence but it doesn't always work in vice versa. it puzzles me a little whether is remaining silent always a good thing when there's a saying that silence means the world

sometimes it is okay to just walk the trail of the person you adore.

it is embarrassing when you catch me looking at you, but then again, that meant you were staring back.

taa~ lovely

PeiNing.

today,-

2010-09-02T06:49:00.000-07:00

Can I Have This Dance - Vanessa Hudgens & Zac Efron

Today, is the 2nd of September.

Today, I felt as if the world was crashing down on me. Brain dead. Lifelessness.

Today, I drove clumsily to college, as much as I know that it was dangerous enough to get myself involved in a fatal car accident that I had someone sounded her horn at me.

Today, I sighed at the fact that our midterm break is next week yet I have to go back to college because of the Psychology classes.

Today, I winced at HELP admin's plan to turn all ADP students into zombies as much as they think that five weeks of procrastination isn't enough for us.

can't they give Foundation and A Levels students more break?

I think they have been working their arse off since the beginning of their program and certainly deserve a longer break.

Today, I felt like using analogies, and I did, as much as I know how I failed miserably at the attempts.

Today, I thought of what's my definition of happiness in Philosophy class. I was dumb-founded.

debate between other students caused my definition of that abstract, immense amount of scarce beauty to surface gradually.

am, contended.

Today, for some reason, I found myself sniffing at the sweet scent as I leaned an inch closer towards you.

Today, I felt like prancing around the campus yet my energy has melted away.

Today, I feigned some smiles and laughter. I feel sorry for doing that.

Today, I listened to Olivia Ong. I felt like crying my heart out, yet I proceeded to make it on replay mode like how I always do to the other songs.

Today, knowing that it ain’t going to be as perfect as yesterday, yet, I looked forward to it.

as much as I'm glad that today is finally over, I still hope that days like this come by more often, being that they aren't the total epitome of monotonous.

If you look inside a girl's heart and see how much she cries. You'll find secrets, promises and lies. But what you'll see most is how hard she tries to stay strong. When nothing is right and everything's wrong.

Love, your mortal.

eat. walk. talk.

2010-09-01T08:59:00.000-07:00

If It’s Love – Train

A year ago…

A group of YE friends gathered together to celebrate the first anniversary (well, almost) of their trip to Narita, Japan. It was fun catching up.

A year later…

The group of four (group size shrunk drastically) gathered together at Plus One Shabu Shabu at One Utama. Jun Yong, Hooi Jett, Amanda & Evelyn. Place was less crowded unlike Sushi Zanmai (initial venue). Food was ordinary. What could you expect out of it? Since it was shabu shabu (steamboat), nice or not, depends on your own ‘cooking’ skills. However, if I was given a choice, I wouldn’t go back there. It was rather pricy and I felt like I was conned with the amount they charged for the homemade sauces. Yes they charge it separately. Even the beverage was EXPENSIVE! Since I was, am on a budget, that meal was pretty heavy. Slices throat. :/

Amanda left early as she had no transport home so the three of us continued our catching up at Old Town White Coffee. They have cockroach there!! O.O

While waiting for Clement to get to One U, I scouted around for feather earrings. After meeting up with Mei Chien, I was obviously influenced by her and have the sudden strong urge to own Hippy style accessories too! Yes anyway, I found the earrings I was looking for at Forever 21. One pair of brown and white feather earrings for RM15. Didn’t buy it since the feathers were not in good shape and I was in a rush. Clement is such a nice person to hang out with. We can go on and on chatting without feeling one bit of tired or erm…. frustrated? Maybe I’m weird because sometimes I really do feel frustrated after talking to a person for some time without the awkward moments in between. Very tiring too. We initially sat down peacefully at Chatterbox HK Cuisine Restaurant for a cup of Iced Lemon Tea. That was when he bombard me with how he actually got his ear piercing and how he expanded it. Not forgetting his really cool looking tattoo with great sentimental value. After that, we took a brisk yet aimless walk around One U while being so engrossed with our conversations. Little did we know that we almost left footprints in every corner of the whole shopping mall. Yes. We walked a few rounds in fact.

Finally, Clement treated me Baskin Robbins. One pint of ice-cream (mint chocolate chip & chocolate) was enough for fill my pea-sized stomach. We talked forever. :)

That was my Merdeka Day. What was yours?

Today is the 1st of September though. A day I will look back in the future and smile. Perfect day. Sheer bliss.

Lovely, Evelyn.

so you sailed away,

2010-08-30T02:08:00.000-07:00

Sweet Memories – Olivia Ong

I didn’t know what happened. I had no clue. All I knew was that I screwed up the whole thing. The sudden strong urge to just put an explosive in my brain and blow my whole head up is hitting me hard now…

Today is Malaysia’s Independence Day, eve. Yes. I was listening to Litefm’s breakfast show (unwillingly as my dad insisted to have that channel tuned in to) and they were talking about what makes us unique as Malaysians. Well, they started mentioning how Malaysians like to say “la” in their sentences and I began to realize the word never fails to appear in daily conversations or even in MSN chats. It feels like the word “la” is already part of the proper grammar (well, it IS for Chinese Grammar) and obviously sounds right and well-integrated in Malaysian’s conversations. Being a sort-of typical Malaysian, I picked up the habit of saying “la” too! In fact, way too extemporaneously and often that you probably think I’m exaggerating already. But no, I made an effort not to write it in here. It is a bad habit I think I have to get rid off. Maybe going to the States will help a lot. :)

If you hadn’t realized, this word “la” has also evolved in time. The whole idea of evolution is something like how human evolves from apes. It is really hilarious when you come to think of it as I have heard people say a variety of words containing similar meaning as “la” and methods of usage are the same too! Ex. “lor” (or if you prefer, more “r”s at the end) “lal” “le” “ma” (or if you prefer, an “r” or more at the end) etc.

In fact, if you were to exempt all these so to say Manglish way of speaking, instead, speak like a proper person in this country, people might turn around and call you a serious or unfriendly person. Oh yes, I feel that too when I first make an acquaintance of any person who speaks without a single “la” in his slash her sentences. :/

Don’t you even think saying “la” only applies to Chinese. You can totally see the concept of 1Malaysia in just the habit of saying “la” as all races in Malaysia do, say “la” as if it is just another normal word they think they should include when speaking to another. In a bigger picture, foreign students I mix with in college, picked up this unique way of conversing too! I have a friend from Zimbabwe, whose name is Princess (don’t ask me why or how but their names will blow your minds off), speaks like a true Malaysian. If you were to talk to her through the internet chat rooms with no clue of her nationality, you would say she’s definitely a Malaysian. Also, my brother who is in the States now claims that some of the White people in America find including “la” in their conversation interesting that they too, begin doing that on purpose when they converse, hoping one day, they can say “la” effortlessly. So what I am trying to say is that, as long as there’s a place where there is the presence of a Malaysian, the culture of saying “la” REMAINS because saying “la” is INFECTIOUS! :D

Did I also mention that Malaysians are rather proud of the “la” culture? Yes they are! :D

Peace Out!

Happy Independence Day, Malaysia!

Love, EvelynLee.

The Perfect Boyfriend ♥

2010-08-29T08:11:00.000-07:00

Maybe – Yiruma

Quote of the day: Immature love says: 'I love you because I need you.' Mature love says 'I need you because I love you.' – Erich Fromm

he would scream, "i love you!" down the halls, not caring who heard him.
he'd go on a walk with me in a 40 degree weather.
hot cocoa in one hand, my hand in his other.
he'd sing out loud to any song, even if i call him retarded.
he let's me sing out loud, and won't call me weird.
he'll sit outside with me on my front step because there's nothing do to, and won't say he's bored once.
he'll let me look like crap, wearing a big T-shirt and shorts and still calls me beautiful.
he'd write me thousands of notes everyday at school.
he'd come to my house at nine in the morning to wake me up on the weekends.
he'll take me to the park and push me on the swings.
he won't be shy around my family, but acts like he's part of it.
he'll argue with my friends that he loves me more.
he'll keep every single promise he makes.
he'd run up and hug me whenever he feels retarded.
he'll spend my birthday with me and my crazy family.
he'd rent all the chick flicks he knows of and watch them with me when i feels sick inside.
he picks his friends over me sometimes.
he'll remember our anniversaries before i do.
he'll call me at night right before i go to bed, just so he knows he's the last voice i hear.
he'd push my hair away when it's in my face.
he'll carry my books at school, even if he already has 2 to carry on his own.
he wears my favorite shirt of his every Monday.
he won't ask me what is wrong when i look sad, instead just kisses me on the forehead.
he'll give me his sweatshirt even if he's freezing and he won't make me feel guilty about it.
he'd never get jealous because he already knows that i love him more than anything.
and when he says forever, he means it, no matter what ♥

p/s: i love you ♥ and you know i do

p/p/s: i had no idea you would be so important to me the first time i met you

Love, Evelyn.

Grown Ups!

2010-08-27T23:22:00.000-07:00

Closer to the Edge – 30 Seconds to Mars

Saturday morning. I woke up not to my own alarm, instead, my sister’s. I groaned while I got up from bed to turn off my alarm before it goes off before diving back to snuggle with my blanket.

“What’s up with you waking up so early?”

“I’m going out today. What about you?”

“Me too!” I exclaimed with a silly morning smirk plastered across my face. It was really hard to actually control my emotions in my muzzy morning condition, what more to be able to think clearly

Sometimes, I just pondered how MeiChien could bear living with her mother. The moment I step into her mum’s Kancil till we arrive at Curve, her mum had been going on and on about things (a little like nagging plus exclamations and rants). I’ve been hearing stories from MeiChien about how she would usually shut her mum out while she nagged. Its pretty interesting seeing how MeiChien would shoot philosophical questions every once in a while.

Strolled around the mall scouting for accessories. None caught my attention. Oh well, not like I wear them very often. Yep. Then we watched Grown Ups! Really worth every single penny of it. Just imagine all the big time comedians such as Adam Sandler, Kevin James, Chris Rock, David Spade and Rock Schneider, gathered together for a movie production. Yes. I was laughing so hard my stomach hurts, my tears streaked down my face. It was that funny. Lots of random jokes popped out when you least expect them, coming in a swarm, one after another. Yeap. Hilarious is the only way to describe this movie. :D

Here’s the trailer. Enjoy!

Grown Ups Trailer

I played my last card

And lost the entire game

EvelynLee.

Vampires SUCK!

2010-08-25T09:50:00.000-07:00

Vampires suck? Oh hell yes they do.

It feels like the Hannah Montana, Disney era is over before it has even win over the hearts of more youngsters world wide. Not like I think Hannah Montana is cool, but the classic Disney cartoons such as Beauty and the Beast, Sleeping Beauty, Little Mermaid, beat Hannah Montana a thousand times! Okay, I’m drifting. Sorry about that.

This new wave of era – nothing but Justin Bieber and Vampires! Come on! Justin Bieber? No offence but the person who threw that bottle towards him rocked socks! About vampires? They are utterly ridiculous and shitty! Overrated. Try walking into a bookstore and you’ll find these vampire story books dominating the whole section of Young Adults. Gives me the creeps. Has anyone seen Twilight movie and the sequels of it? I’m sure many did. They sucked. Really. Even scrutinizing how an old man walks is more interesting than watching those crappy movies. Yeah I read all four books. The first book was okay, fairly decent. It makes you fantasize with the little little romance in it. God… the next three books murdered me. Not only the story sucks, the little little romance were such turn off. I was disgusted. Yes. So ask me why did I even bother reading New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn? My friend lent me those and I was only curious to know how severe desperation was pushing Stephanie Meyers to the completion of her sucky vampire story. Previously, I was watching the Teen Choice Awards and this romance vampire franchise totally dominated the event! I was livid, fuming, furious, while constantly muttering “Overrated” under my breath. This went on for quite a while till I finally couldn’t take the stress anymore that I turned off the television and stomped off. I was pissed. Definitely.

I was notified about this parody of Twilight Saga through Nuffnang. They were then, giving out free screening tickets for Vampires Suck, only if you write interesting enough blog post about how vampires suck and Nuffnang likes it! I should probably stop saying how Justin wrote in and won it and brought me with him but that was how I got to go. Thank you heaps.

The movie was actually not that hilarious. Just another lousy parody of the original movie. Not a big fan. What I like most is that I can actually go, “ Ha! IN YOUR FACE!” to all Twilight fans and also Stephanie Meyers. Yes I do.

Love, Evelyn.

primary peeps get together session;

2010-08-24T01:49:00.000-07:00

Reason (Gundam Seed Destiny)

Session officially started at 7pm, where everyone gathered in front of Starbucks at the Curve. There wasn’t any awkward moment as far as I can recall, which is a good thing! We get along perfectly the moment our eyes met. It felt like it has been too long that we don’t even have time to feel awkward and started chattering away.

A group of 13 people in which four of them are guys, we had a perfect spot occupied at the Paddington House of Pancakes. A cage like area right in the middle of the restaurant literally separated us from the rest of the customers. Took us quite a while to actually find a place which can house us all since it was buka puasa hour then. Ordered our food and started chatting and got all hyped up. Effects were rather similar to getting a tipsy.

We were practically shouting at each other enthusiastically in the midst of all the noises of other peoples’ conversations. We were animated and obviously causing way too much noise and stirring up commotion to actually cause resentment in other customers in that restaurant. I bet some of them were livid as I could almost see their faces burn in rage when I scanned the room whenever my friends burst into roaring laughter and the rest joined in the hilarity. All I could do was to change my facial expression into a very apologetic one with a slight frown of the eyebrows whenever I feel that they are looking at me. Occasionally, I feel apprehensive about us, staying there to catch up for the whole night. Yes I was.

Food came. Well, I knew I couldn’t finish one whole dish all by myself and therefore decided to share two dishes with Keefe and Amanda. Only have picture of one of the dishes. I also shared a Fizzy Mango and Orange juice with Keefe. It has a really unique sensation to it with the mango taste dominating the beverage.

Thumbs up!

I love how when we spoke of all the nicknames we used to give each other for teasing purposes, vivid memories rushed to fill in to the fading spaces in our minds. It felt incredible.

Bumped into Mei Yi. She likes my friends, claimed that they were hilarious bunch of people. :D

After taking some pictures with the display fire truck outside of the Curve and also around the area, we took a brisk walk along the edge of Ikano to the car park while joking around foolishly.

Jammed our way to Dataran Sunway’s Kayu Nasi Kandar to continue with more fun time catching up. Dad came in the middle of our chats and so I had to leave with Mei Chien. It was fun after all. Can’t wait for the next session. Cheers!

Them: Keefe Chan, Yee Wen, Chia Poh, Michelle Tung, Tiffany Ng, Sabrina Cheong, Mei Chien, Leanne Mong, Amanda Yip, Wee Shen, Kah Hoe, Yung Tyng.

It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them. – Ralph Waldo Emerson

~With Love ♥

exhales;

2010-08-23T09:06:00.000-07:00

Quote of the day: Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase. – Martin Luther King, Jr.

Today, was obviously the first day of the Fall semester and also the first day of my third semester in ADP. I previously listed out a few subjects that I would like to take for this semester but due to the Psychology time table which was then, not out yet, none of us could actually be a hundred percent sure of the subjects that we are going to take.

8.30am…

I got down my dad’s silver Myvi at Wisma HELP’s ground floor. The first sight and sensation of the building creeps me out heaps. A levels students are on break. Degree students still on holiday. The whole Wisma HELP and KPD E felt like deserted, especially in this month of the Hungry Ghost Festival, the building lights were not switched on~ Okay cut the crap. I approached the lift, just to see a guy, approximately one head taller than I am, looking at a piece of paper laid on top of the ADP paper file. Immediately, I guessed that he should be a freshman, first semester here at HELP. I flashed him a friendly grin before he asked me where LH9.4 was supposed to be. I was thinking, “How CUTE! Just like how I was when I was a newbie!” I entered the lift with him and offered to show him the way to his class. He’s pleased. I was too! Best thing to feel on the first day of the semester. By the way, he doing actuarial science as his major.

Headed to level 9 while waiting for Loh to bring me my McDonald’s breakfast! Ooh… I was exempted from the RM3 McDelivery charges. :) *skips around the room* LOL… So then everybody (Loh, Sarah, Vanesse & Gilbert) gathered at the place where I sat down and off we went down for breakfast where Justin joined us on the way there

Biology was okay. Justin was right about my lecturer, Ms. Ponni. She’s soft, as if she’s trying to communicate with the ants without breaking the ants’ eardrums. Did I mention that the Biology class was packed? Yeah, hell it was. Attended Introduction to Western Philosophy class too! Lecturer was our current Head of Department, Mr. Ho Kin Chai. Well, I wouldn’t say I enjoyed that class very much because it was a mixture of both enlightenment and boredom as it was a little draggy at the same time. I like how his words and examples actually made me think but I couldn’t help myself from checking the clock from time to time. Finally when Mr. Ho did called it end for the day, I found myself letting out a deep sigh. Just so you know, I wasn’t the only one then, exhaling loudly. It felt to me like the entire class was, as if a burden was lift off from our shoulders

I landed my choices on four subjects; Biology Sciences, Intro to Western Philosophy, Intro to Research Methods & Human Personality.

With much love, Evelyn.

Peekaboo!

2010-08-22T04:20:00.000-07:00

Dynamite – Taio Cruz

Sunday, 22nd August, 2010.

College starts tomorrow. I would say I am rather exhilarated just like how I always do at the beginning of each semester. Then, comes the selection of subjects and then the arrangement of time tables. That is when the headache creeps in, unfortunately. Such frustrating yet inevitable process eventually repeats itself every semester in ADP, and I believe, it definitely works the same for every other programs.

Today, I want to pamper myself before the new semester ahead for the last time. I’d laze around, I’d be a potato couch, I’d eat junkies, I’d take insanely long nap, I’d not bother anything that I don’t like doing, I’d indulge myself with the usual procrastination, I’d do anything to please myself, avoid anything that will break my little bubble.

I can’t wait. I just wish this coming semester will be one hell of a rockin’ one.

Oh yes it definitely will be. High hopes. :)

Taa~ Signing off and resume to more procrastination.

EvelynLee.

Secret Valentine.

2010-08-18T23:05:00.000-07:00

Along with this post, an ultimate romantic piece composed by Yiruma himself. Though the expressions couldn't be captured vividly, just listen to the beauty of the melody. It'll drown you into fantasies. Kindly leave a comment, preferably not in the Cbox.
Thank you and enjoyy!

Kiss The Rain by EvelynLee

I fell for you the moment I laid my eyes on you

Off you became the apple of my eye

Which I very much wonder why

That familiarity of your face

Was imprinted on the core of my soul

I just knew that

Someday, I am going to know you

Whenever we brush pass one another

Where you just go on without acknowledging my presence

Till you enter the elevator right before the lift door closes

Till you disappear at the corner to the other side of the building

I simply glance past my shoulder just to see you off

Silently

I wished I knew you

Secretly

I wished I could do more than just staring from afar

I guess it was destiny that unites us

As when I first made your acquaintance

I found myself fumbling for the right word

I found myself not staring at your eyes as I spoke

I found my heart fluttering

I was unusually nervous and fidgeting

Yet I enjoyed how you simply flashed your perfect curved smile

Awaiting the detached words I uttered

To form the most awkward and clumsy sentence

Which I figured, did not make any sense to you

The days passed by with such an astonishing pace

As we hung around each other our fondness surfaced

Yes I cherished your eternal presence

Suffered when you weren't at your usual place

It was typical as I adored your gaze

Slowly, love buds grow on to a new phase

I fell for you the moment I laid my eyes on you

Off you became my secret valentine

Which I very much wonder why

I love you

For how you always stare deep into my eyes like there's no tomorrow

I love you

For the way you have always been so affectionate towards me
that make my girlfriends jealous

I love you

For the way you are

So don't change anything that is already there

Love, EvelynLee.

Little Cravings.

2010-08-17T12:28:00.000-07:00

Best I Ever Had - Vertical Horizon

This post is to remind me again how to rant because I have a feeling that I am going forget how to do that very soon.

So, here comes…

Truthfully speaking, its been one month into my holiday and I obviously don’t have many days left. Not to mention, I, being a massive procrastinator at home, am clueless about the things I have accomplished so far since finals. I would call myself an epic failure while slapping that big “L” that I form with my index finger and thumb hard on my forehead.

Oh yes. I will do that right after this sentence itself.

*slaps “L” hard against forehead*

I couldn't believe the fact that I actually slacked through the days, being so unproductive. It was as if I was a living corpse, literally stucking my head right in front of that stupid laptop clicking away like there's no tomorrow, fingers fumbling clumsily over the sheer keyboard, LOL-ing at some ridiculous videos on Facebook and YouTube, cracking laughter at MLIA, browsing other's blog while fantasizing to live life like others; happening lifestyles, reading other's rant and amused by how other calls themselves bitches in their rants.

My life is currently all screwed and messed up that if my holiday were to be any longer than 5 weeks, I would just rot and end up in hell.

I'm pathetic. I am in desperate need to get my life sort out and resume to my old routine, which I feel much more comfortable in. Yes I want to go back to college, to hang out with my friends, to be like a normal person again. Well, I guess I can wait. Its just another week away.

Oh I feel a migraine kicking in again. I shall be off then...

Taa~ Nights to the world.

Evelyn signing off.

SASA Farewell Dinner.

2010-08-15T10:26:00.000-07:00

When I Look At You - Miley Cyrus

Quote of the day: Insanity - doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. - Albert Einstein

It certainly cannot be gainsaid that there were and are true talents and bright individuals in the SASA team. Of course, not all of them are very committed to it; someone like me is worth a smack in the arse, but, just one smack, not more. :)

So, the leaders are in constant switching and I guess and hope its all settled down now. Our beloved president, Pauline left us to pursue her beloved subject goal and to-be-ambition - Law under the JPA scholarship, which also means, penniless education under certain terms and condition of course.

Our present president, Lily Foong, I heard, got the Sime Darby scholarship and is most probably leaving us too.

The group 3 leader, Ezreena, if I'm not mistaken, got the JPA scholarship and left us.

A few of other friends were the same too. All doing different courses.

In order to honor their efforts and contributions to SASA of these outstanding scholars as well as a celebration dinner for all the successful events we've accomplished so far, hence, we had a dinner! Nyomnyomnyom... :D

July 10th, 2010.

Anyway, this was held at the LaLaChong restaurant located at Kayu Ara. Great food.

Love is a symbol of eternity. It wipes out all sense of time, destroying all memory of a beginning and all fear of an end.

Cheers to people who made college feels even more like home. Love.

The Expandables.

2010-08-14T01:33:00.000-07:00

Love The Way You Lie - Eminem

Okay. I initially wrote in to Nuffnang to see if I get lucky and win a pair of free passes to this special screening of the new movie – The Expandables, but didn't succeed. Justin got it and brought me along. Cheers!

Woke up in the morning feeling totally crappy. Squinted at my white wrist watch, the shorter needle pointed at 10 while the longer one stroke 12. I pulled myself up to a sitting posture just to find myself seeing stars while my vision blacked out for a moment. My head was spinning like crazy till when every thing was back to normal, my left brain starts hurting like hell. I was like, “Crap. Migraine at this time?” So yeah, I had migraine for the entire day. Totally sucking the energy out of me. I found that I don’t even have the energy to talk much.

It was a gloomy day, though the temperature of the atmosphere was heating up so much. It felt like we were in some volcanic zone while some where in a few miles away, there is some volcanic eruption. Sucks.

So, dinner at The Garden at Curve. Well, first time to that restaurant. One look at it, that restaurant was definitely inspired by a romantic garden concept where there were ~~fake~~ flower decorations in almost every corner and an overall white concept. The white grand especially enhance the exuded tranquility of the cafe. Alright. What I was trying to say was good atmosphere, love the environmental-friendly ambience of it.

In the meanwhile, the food wasn’t up to its standard. ~~Not nice.~~ Ordinary. I would suggest other places if food is your main aim, Garden if romance is your main reason. :)

Nuffnang Screening – The Expandables

Many will say, “Owh… Its a guy movie. Lots of actions.” But frankly speaking, I adored it. Hell yeah I have quite an amount of testosterone in me too! Maybe it is not normal for a girl to say stuffs like that but I have to admit, they’ve got style. The way they hold their guns, the way they kill, the way they punch et cetera, style is what they have.

Though I am not a gun expert, I thought I saw Jason Statham holding a cool gun somewhat like the one Josh Duhamel was holding in Transformers. I just thought I might want to mention it here. Same technology! No, I didn’t include the super advanced rifle Terry Crews was holding. Cool beans. Can totally blow a person’s body into pieces with one bullet. Nicely choreographed action scenes.

Unless the projectionist made a mistake in the settings, this was one of the loudest movies I have ever seen. Even a small knife throw sounded like a small explosion. What more a real big ass explosion? Felt like my ear drums was exploding on each side of my ears.

Besides, there were a couple of scenes where the camera placement wasn’t at all perfect. Like the one where Jet Li was fighting and getting bashed up at the same time, it was rather chaotic and hence, the action was not quite well-delivered.

Despite the negative comments, I still love how the random jokes and people came popping out in the middle of each scene. Like the one where Arnold Schwarznegger and Bruce Willis made their random appearance, I couldn’t stop laughing. I didn’t expect so much humor in this pre-perceived as a group of gung ho fighters geared up for some action-packed mission. Thumbs up!

Had trouble sleeping that night. Adrenaline gushing through me. Thank God my sister wasn’t sleeping beside me that day. I woke up in the morning to realize I was tangled up in the blanket. None left at my sister’s side. Not my usual being. :D

Love, EvelynLee.

Foodelicious.

2010-08-10T03:43:00.000-07:00

A Moment Like This – Leona Lewis

Hola!

Firstly, a million times of apologies for the lousy picture quality you will see in the latter. Wasn’t expecting a trip to the hospital will drag on and lead us to many many other interesting places and hence, the stupidity for not bringing the camera along. Secondly, enjoyyy~

7th August, 2010.

So, at night, my aunt and uncle brought us for some really delicious ramen at the Meritus Mandarin – Ippudo Ramen. Definitely a long cue just to get seated in that restaurant at the Mandarin Gallery. That was how popular it is. I would say the ramen is definitely one of a kind, more delicious than normal ramen in some other ordinary shop but the price is certainly beautiful too. I would recommend that place to you only if you are celebrating something special and not just for an ordinary dine out kind of occasion. Unless your wallet is full, you may. Thank you. We got ourselves a place to our own in the only private room of the restaurant with one condition – spend a minimum of $32 per pax. My generous handsome uncle agreed to that without further hesitation for a detour from the long wait for a normal sitting. The appetizers were as nice as everything they served throughout the night. I especially like the chocolate cake for dessert. So rich, so delicious. Nyomnyomnyom… :D

We were chattering joyously in that private space that we were shocked enough to find that they were already preparing to close down the place when we stepped out of the room. That explains the two awkward occasions of the waiters lifting up the (door curtain) and peeping in as if the check on us besides having them bring the bill to us without the need to summon them

After the incredibly heavy dinner, we were brought to the so called most happening place in Singapore – Dempsey Hill to chill and relax. According to my uncle,which then confirmed by Google searching, that place used to be the headquarters of the Military of Defense of the country and therefore the small alley to Dempsey itself is called the MinDef road. As the car glided swiftly through and came to the end of the dark path with barely any visible street lights, a glimpse of small dim light bulbs came to greet our sight. There were restaurants, bars, places for young adults to hang out at night after long hours of work in the day, or even for weekends gatherings. Situated in the midst of lush greenery, it is indeed, very hard to associate the resort-like ambience that shapes the current Dempsey Hill, with the discipline and regiment of the military in the olden times. Unleashing waves of relaxed and laid back vibe, Dempsey is, in fact, the perfect hang out spot.

We came to a place called CMPB – Contemporary Melting-Pot & Bar, had a seat and started drinking some white wines.

Tried two different white wines from New Zealand, followed by another from Australia. The one from NZ was a Cloudy Bay, 2004 with a 11.5% alcohol content, while that of Aussie’s was a Chandonnay, 2008, which alcohol content I’m not so sure of.

Cloudy Bay had a rather sweet taste to it and is more suitable for ladies while Chandonnay had some acidic nature but still, is lighter compared to red wines.

Overall, both tasted decent. Me like. Me adore. :)

What puzzles me is that both my parents’ and my sister’s faces turned red while mine remained normal after drinking. I thought, I’m good! Heh…

Returned home at about one o’clock in the morning. Time for bed! Zonked out the minute my head was rested on the pillow. A good night sleep with some ultimately weird dreams though. Toodles~

Lovely,

The road back home.

2010-08-09T07:47:00.000-07:00

American Honey – Lady Antebellum

Okay. My maternal grandparents’ home is at Paloh, Johore. It is truly a small town that barely anyone is well aware of the existence is this place. Unless you take the train from anywhere in the Semenanjung Malaysian down through Johore to Singapore, you won’t know this place called Paloh. However, the government has changed the route of the train so that it will not stop at Paloh since two years ago. So, this place is so hidden that you have to turn in through a look-alike deserted junction and travel about 30km down the curvy road with countless bends and sharp corners to actually reach it.

Of course, along the way, the oil palm plantation and the rubber tree plantation was all you can see. It certainly cannot be gainsaid that the mere scenery of the pale blue sky with white fluffy-looking clouds and the sea of plantation is something of a different yet unique flavor compared to the panoramic view of the city. You might find that I love to stare at the open space which preferably be - the sky. Well, this is because I find peace and serenity in it. Somehow I feel that the sky renders the tranquil vibe that I could not find in any other things on Earth.

Therefore, the sky – my great escape

We stopped there for a night before heading down to Singapore the next day.

At Singapore, we visited my grandaunt, who was very sick in the Singapore General Hospital. She was down with the last stage of cancer and did not have much time left. My heart felt like it was squeezed the whole time I was there. Though she was still able to joke around about things, the idea of her having to receive injection of morphine every hour is plain barbaric. Before leaving the hospital, I took a last glance at her pale face, thinking, this will most probably be my last time seeing her.

Reminiscing how she used to laugh joyously and play with my siblings and I when we were young, I sucked back my tears with much effort. Knowing I will miss her, I still wish she will leave us soon to put an end to her sufferings. Sigh, this is life, the cycle that will never end.

P/S : Could it be that I miss you too much that it seemed to me as if you appear in all of my dreams?

Tonight was a cloudless night

Though there were countless stars in the dark sky

Yet there was one, which shone so brilliantly compared to the dim ones surrounding it

I thought, that was you, the special one, the shining star in my heart

Evelyn.

when girls get together;

2010-08-05T11:56:00.000-07:00

Kissin You – Miranda Cosgrove

♥ Aww… This song is just so sweet. :) ♥

Today was a girly day out with my two girlfriends, MeiChien & YiXuan. Tropicana City, it was again, since it was close to our place and since we have transport problem to travel all the way to Sunway Pyramid, which was the initial venue for our outing. So, MeiChien & I were there way before YiXuan did and we caught up a little while both of us disclosed some girl stuffs to each other while waiting for YiXuan to come over to join us. Had lunch at Taiwan Street. Well, it was ordinary. Food was okay, it was a little pricey but still affordable, rather okay environment. However, I wouldn’t go there the second time until I have tried every other restaurants in that mall. Anyway, we spent some time at the arcade playing this shooting game MeiChien wanted to play. It was sure tiring, holding the plastic rifle up for so long. From this, at least I know that I can’t be a military person or even Evelyn SALT (this will be properly explained in the latter). Besides, we raced car. The irony was that MeiChien, who does not have a license yet, won the first place of the whole race while I ended up second and YiXuan being the third. I mean what the heck? It wasn’t supposed to be like that! The sequence was totally out of place. YiXuan should appear first because she got her license earlier than I did. I know myself that I am bad at racing. Reason was because my car always overturn at this particular sharp corner. I sucked a big time. MeiChien, laugh all you like. :D
,

So, we watch SALT this afternoon.

Man, it was sure a nice movie though I don’t quite fancy the ending of the movie. It felt to me like there is still a long time to go before the movie ends, with all the intriguing and well choreographed action scenes blasting out on the big screen continuously. I was so engrossed in the movie that when one of the GSC workers opened the exit door, allowing the bright fluorescent light shine in through the rectangular opening, it blinded my eye a little as I stare at the glowing space. I switched my vision back to the screen with much disbelief. Well, I guess Justin is right about how the director was planning on the sequel of this movie – SALT II, perhaps. Anyway, the highlight of this movie is not only the kickin’ ass actions, but also the hottie herself, Evelyn Salt, starring Angelina Jolie. I would say, she was smokin’ hot no matter what kind of looks she put on, whether being a blonde, black hair, short hair, it all doesn’t matter cause with her pretty looks, thick luscious lips, high cheekbones etc., she is ABLE to pull off whatever look! Everything about her is just too perfect to be put into words. In fact, I only know a word to truly describe her – HOT! I know its kinda weird for the fact that I’m so into a grown woman and even describing her facial features but for those who doesn’t know how hot she is, damn it, just watch this movie, or Wanted, or Tomb Raider, or whatever movie you can get hold of with her in it. :) Anyway, reason why I said I couldn’t be Evelyn Salt was because YiXuan said I actually can be Evelyn Salt. Plucked from my very own Facebook status : At some point, I could really be Evelyn SALT. Straight black hair (not so long though), straight cut, bangs. Plus, my name is Evelyn. Cheh.. wannabe. ♥

Before heading home, we thought maybe we could do what normal girls always do; enter a shop, pick an outfit, go to the fitting room and change, come out, admire, *clicks* take a picture (or maybe a few pictures). So that was what we did at Nichii. I picked a jean outfit – tube dress. It wasn’t what I would wear but that was the whole point of it; pick something definitely out of your range of acceptable style. I still think I like the other outfit I saw. It looked a little like a trench coat and had kind of a real safari girl vibe to it. Day ended well. I am contended. Cheers!
Its getting late. Toodles~

In that jam packed lift

While everyone deliberately pushed me from all sides

I felt you stood protectively beside me

As if to keep others from getting onto me

Love, EvelynLee.

Absolute chemistry.

2010-08-04T00:31:00.000-07:00

I am currently not listening to any song when blogging for the first time in so many posts. But the soundtrack of the Korean drama series - My Fair Lady has been on replay mode in my mind since 8.30pm last night when the movie started. Yeap. 8TV was showing it all these while and yesterday was the last episode of it. It was rather sad seeing two people who are deeply in love with each other cannot be together though they still had a happy ending.

사랑해... ♥

It was yet, another day out with Justin. Well, I would say I was being a "gentlelady" for accompanying him. Long story short, he had to send his sister to tuition and had to wait a few hours till her tuition ends. Since I was nearby... bla bla bla... you should know what happens next...

Strolled around the mall, hung out at Border's and Starbucks. Pretty laid back and casual, which is what I like best. Oh its back to Taylor Swift, the goddess of modern fairytale and her songs. She's just awesome you know? The lyrics just make sense. Anyway, something happened besides him scaring the hell out of me by creeping up on me quietly from behind. *smacks Justin*

My heart is still bobbing furiously beneath my chest when I recall the whole situation. Its so mind-blogging in a way. I think this feeling is not going to fade away anytime soon. At least, it persists, even after waking up from a good night sleep this morning. Cares heck about what I feel, what goes around comes around. But, I really do love yesterday. ♥

Little note : I got my FREE HP netbook this morning, thanks to TM. Cool beans... :)

Little note II : Today is one boring day. Tomorrow should be a better day. :)

Little note III : Should I play the piano again? I'm ~~freaking~~ bored... :)
Little note IV : I can't wait to watch SALT! :)

you are the reason why I love you

so don't try any harder...

Lovely

hibiberjibes;

2010-08-02T08:29:00.000-07:00

Permanent - David Cook

teedledum-

Rejection. Dejection.

These were the two words which roamed around my mind throughout the past three days. The truth is, I participated in a sales team of a company selling health products for a Renovation Expo happening at MidValley. Well, since I was the youngest person in the whole team, I was rather anxious and concerned about my performance.

The first day went by...

the general idea of the experienced and pro people in the team were only able to close just a few sales calmed my nerves down a little. At least I know that I don't lack so far behind from the overall group performance too. They were being so nice to me, including my boss, where they constantly give me advice and tips on how to tackle people besides soothing me with how having me join them is not something to cause stress and pressure but as an exposure and to gain experiences on how to deal with people. Ahh... Good people.

The second day went by...

Sales wasn't as good as the first day's. I was actually hoping for the day to end and could not keep my eyes off my watch. Constantly whining about how I'm missing the MTV World Stage (not to say that I really want to go but I would like to meet Katy Perry ♥). I did many attempts on approaching people, promoting our products but to no avail. One of the seniors actually praised me for my ability to "talk". Yet, whether or not I was able to close a sale also depends a lot on the customers themselves.

The third and last day...

I was pretty pissed hearing the same thing over and over again; we will take a look around first and then we come back. Thank you.

I mean what the toot? They are all liars. No one came back. Well, maybe one or if we were lucky, two came back. And obviously, which I don't know why, I always get those customers who acted as if they were so interested in knowing more about our products, leaving me spending the next hour trying my best to talk them into purchasing our products and get that same old ~~stupid~~ ~~lame~~ reply; we will take a walk then we come back alright? Thank you so much.

Sentences like that act like wild fire lighting up the thick woods, spreading sparks of bright red flames in all directions. Today, I made the most attempts and feel the greatest pain of dejection. My efforts felt like flour being thrown to the open air, blown away by the brisk breeze the moment it was set free off the grip.

Today, the response was the worst of all three days, making the graph a straight line down along the x-axis. The responses deteriorate in such obvious and organized pattern that actually took us by shock. We were expecting higher sales for the subsequent days on the first day yet it turned out to be the opposite.

I would say that sales require both persuasion skills and also luck. Unfortunately, luck is what I certainly do not possess and persuasion skills is what I lack of.

In a nutshell, FAIL - I am.

*bows politely*

Thank you for reading my rants.

~~Suddenly my readers disappeared. No idea why that happened. The sudden steep drop puzzles me a lot.~~

Evelyn.

a slice off the flesh;

2010-07-28T09:39:00.000-07:00

Way Back Into Love - Hugh Grant & Hayley Bennett

Is it just me or I prone to get hurt when I use sharp things? Today, while I was skinning the orange, my middle finger got in the way and the skin at the tip of it came off. It didn't hurt any bit at all at first but I was bleeding profusely. I ran water over the awkward opening to get rid of the blood and continued with the previous.

When I began doing other things including attempting to play the piano, the pain kicks in. I couldn't even play it properly. I ended up putting the music sheets away and closed the piano with much frustration mixed with mild rage stirring up in me. When I take a shower or wash my hands, the series of stinging pain attack my wound. I couldn't even wash my hair properly. I feel handicapped just with that minuscule cut. Every single thing that I do will certainly bring pain to that wound. Need not say, even typing poses as a problem. For hurting myself, I feel so incredibly, utterly useless.

Anyway, a gathering with MeiChien and YiXuan was great since we haven't met each other for at least five months already and MeiChien is back to Malaysia from China to do her UK Visa. It was certainly an awesome catch up session plus, making YiXuan and MeiChien to remember the times they shared back then in a tuition.

A long six hours chat didn't seem any bit sufficient at all as when both of them left for home at 7pm, we promised each other another outing not only to watch movie but to chat more.

I was glad that I called for this outing to meet up with them both even though they weren't sure if they knew each other but it seemed to me after seeing them talk to each other, they can really click with each other. Thumbs up for myself! :)

Training for the fair going on this weekend was held at night. In the midst of all the adult discussions, I couldn't help but to feel utmost inferior.

Myriad questions flashed past my mind and I struggled to muster strength to find my way through the blanket of shock that muffled my thinking. It was like the weight in my mind was casting an actual shadow on my vision and hearing as I wasn't actually concentrating on the diagrams scribbled over the board nor listening to the speaker. Instead, I was preoccupied with ideas on how to close a sale.

This went on forever even when I'm in my comfort sheets trying to get some sleep.

Just moments ago, I actually tried practicing it and realized I didn't actually know how to convey the idea and ended up tongue tied with lots of hesitations. I should really try harder..

Nevermind, tomorrow. Tomorrow will do.

Last Rant: I feel like a pimple producing machine. ~~Stupid.~~

Right now, the song Way Back Into Love is on replay mode and I am indeed, planning not to get it off my head anywhere soon. I just love how it is so melodious and the vocals fit perfectly to compliment each other. The soothing feel that song renders nothing but tranquility in the midst of my anxiety and troubled feelings.

Wish you were here...

Lovely.

Explanatory Conundrum.

2010-07-26T20:25:00.000-07:00

Sweet Memories - Olivia Ong

It is freaky how time flies even when you are doing nothing. Not to mention how its speed is doubled or tripled when you are working your ass off some assignments or hard coring for an exam

Disclaimer: Rants ahead. I repeat. Rants ahead.

All these while, I realized that many questions about life, love, relationships, friendships have been tossed towards me constantly like its never-ending. I guess my fellow friends see me as a good reference point. Just so you know, I myself is confused and dumb-founded with the problems I am facing. I used to think why and how some people's life can be so complicated and miserable with countless choices to make and problems to solve. I used to think that I would rather be dead than to be like them, so stressed up and screwed up.

Sometimes, I find myself telling them just what I feel and think is logical and appropriate for solving the situations bothering my friends, not knowing if I would be able to do the same when things don't work out well for me. I desperately need somebody who is capable of giving me solutions and at the same time, be there for me when I'm down. It is like I don't already possess the ability of putting myself out of the commotion in a third party's point of view and judge according to my instincts. It is too easy to tell people how and what to do, but it certainly takes much determination to perform it yourself. Well, it is so true that talking is easier than putting words into action. At times, I was so scared that I might ruin the whole situation with my despicable attitude that I can only sit and cry when my feelings finally burst out. Sudden surge of adrenaline, in the mean time would just lead me to more fidgeting.

Urgh... feelings like that sucks.

I hate.

I loathe.

I despise.

Holiday hasn't been going well for me. Besides purchasing a few outfits I adore too much that its lethal, every other days were left for rotting at home. Soon, later in the afternoon, I will be meeting MeiChien and YiXuan for a get-together lunch. Looking forward to it. Owh... And I need to do some studying. So much for joining the sales team for the fair happening on this coming Friday, Saturday and Sunday at MidValley Megamall. So if anyone of you are interested in knowing what I am going to sell, come on and have a look. :)

Opps, sorry for doing sales over here already. I'll cut it off here. Period.

Today will be a long long day. At least, much more productive than usual. <3

...

Being in love is when you replay the conversations you had with your prince charming at the back of your mind over and over again after saying goodbyes to one another. What more? You read the messages he sent to you over and over again yet never get sick of it. This is love. And you will crave for more yet never need to worry how it will make you fat at the end of the day like how chocolate does to your body.

Signing out feeling contended.

EvelynLee.

Bon Odori 2010.

2010-07-25T23:18:00.000-07:00

Shut Up & Kiss Me - Orianthi

paper notes;

When was the last time I went to this annual event? Too long... So I decided to return to take a look around

I was never fast in wearing yukata until that day (17.7.2010). A talk at 222 dragged on till I barely had time to get home and prepare. Took me only about 15 minutes to look good in my pink yukata. The long walk down the road to the stadium brutally murdered my feet. That wooden slippers I was wearing was definitely not a pair of comfortable footwear. I wished I wore my orange flip flops instead. Alone, I contacted Sook Yan to locate her position so that I could go ahead and look for her. Man, it was hard as hell in the midst of the sea of ecstatic people.

Justin spammed my inbox with messages about how he got lost and was really scared. He made me really nervous as I could do nothing to help. He made it there in the end anyway...

There were nothing special besides the overwhelming number of people present then and of course, beautifully dressed people in colorful variety of yukata. The dances on the stage situated right in the middle of the stadium, went on and on along with the music. They seemed to have repetitive dance moves, though I did not pay much attention to it. I was busy hunting down small kids to take picture with. It was epic how our attempts to get those chubby faces to snap a picture with us turned out. They actually looked fragile and vulnerable beside us. I can totally imagine how their small legs would shake furiously beneath that sheer sheets of fabrics over, which were only capable of providing the littlest psychological protection from the strangers aside. Some even cringed so quickly to hide behind their mummy's legs as we approached as if it was a normal reflex action taking place. Adorable. *feigns evil laughter*

Bumped into Adri, Hazim and Hadi, some high school dudes. Adri looked laid back in his cool wool fedora. It was weird seeing them hanging around without the presence of Riyal. They used to stick to each other back then in high school as if they were glued together.

That event ended sooner than expected. People streamed out from the stadium. It was a rather chaotic situation

Did I mention how glad I was to be able to meet Sook Yan again? After many unsuccessful plans to meet up after parting ways, finally... I'm rather satisfied. :)

Today I browsed through my sister's phone book and saw that she had Jay Sean's phone number in it. I bet she took it down from one of Jay's tweets. Talk about celebrity crush. She beats me in that. :D

Vanilla Twilight's music video gives me goosebumps. <3

Love, Evelyn.

2010-07-24T11:48:00.001-07:00

Internet ftw :)

2010-07-24T11:23:00.000-07:00

Kissin You - Miranda Cosgrove

I switched my streamyx to the COOL UNI PACK.

Apparently, this is the best deal streamyx has got to offer apart from being only available to first and second year university students and contract period of only two years. As for the netbook, it has only an atom processor, so it ain't the cream of the crop but hey, cheaper price for extra goodies! Ain't that the best deal ever? :D

Anyways,

its a long story from how I got to know about it to the day I got my internet connection back.

The point is, some idiot went to terminate my existing internet attached to my home's subline before this new streamyx attached to my home's mainline is activated. In other words, I initially DO NOT need to suffer from the no-internet-days like how the other applicants had to.

Geez, thanks to that IQ-below-average person who terminated my internet account, I suffered quite a lot.

But, thanks to him, I got almost a 100% concentration for my finals.

So, after almost a month without any internet connection, after making calls exceeding ten times to TM to complain, after having the kind installer to come and check on the stability of the ADSL line (which is not and that's why he can't do heck about it), after having the technician to check on the instruments out there at one of the tall poles, the internet is finally back.

The anxiety and high hopes invested in the early anticipation period eventually faded to a mild and an utterly trivial problem, which means I was almost immune to the effects of no internet.

On Wednesday,

as I was pampering myself by watching Korean drama series and munching some snacks, the doorbell rang and it was the technician. Soon after he left, the installer came to install and activate my streamyx. Everything happened so quickly in the blink of an eye. I was flabbergasted when I was told that everything was back to normal and I can use the internet again (I made a wish the previous day at 11.11am that I would be happy enough to get my internet back by the beginning of the new semester). Right now, I'm paying RM68 for 1Mbps, plus, the free Wi-Fi modem that they promised. Soon after, they will mail the free netbook by courier. How's that? Life's great all of a sudden.

Hence, I guess this explains the long hiatus from blogging. :)

Grey clouds are gone, blew away by the wind, replaced with white ones, complimenting the sunny blue sky. Something about a sunny day, keeping the clouds away. Oh, how I love how metaphors insinuate things

&because you make me feel like living and dying at the same time.

That's bliss. That's love.

EvelynLee

Fete de la Musique 2010.

2010-07-23T04:03:00.000-07:00

Airplanes - B.O.B ft Hayley Williams

It has been a while since Fete de la Musique. The only reason to the delay of this post is obvious. So I guess that it is still unnecessary for me to go into any indulgent explanations.

Fete de la Musique is an annual music event organized to celebrate music. When I say music, I mean every genre you possibly know or may not. Keeping to the 8-year-old tradition, Malaysia becomes part of this worldwide celebration, while giving opportunities to local amatuer and professional musicians to showcase their musical talent without discrimination of background, style and experience. Plus, it is a music festival held in more than 300 countries worldwide, happening on the same day - the day of pure summer solstice

I initially signed up for a whole day shift from 8am till 10pm, not a clue about what this event has got to offer. I thought, maybe this is a golden opportunity for me to burn my way-too-much internship hours. I stepped out of the car onto the hard bitumen pavement where my canvas shoes gripped on, just to have a series of drum test noise bombard both ears. I exhaled heavily and immediately shrugged off the negative thoughts a pessimist like me can come up with then headed towards the red booth set up about a hundred meters away. I sauntered pass the Volkswagen showroom and managed to have some envious moments. Shared some light moments with Reuben and the others who came along soon while watching some of the bands stepped up to do sound tests.

The string of back to back performance which lasted till about 11pm began at 10.30 in the morning. As expected, the morning performances did not attract any crowd at all. The shoppers merely took glances at the performers on stage as they strutted by. As I was in charge of floor managing, my boss instructed me to go around explaining to people what the event was about, or even wheedle people into joining the fun out of desperation. The scorching sun was one of the pullbacks of the event, I mean, who is willing to risk standing under the hot sun just to watch some random people perform? No doubt, some of the pretty performers with pretty voice and awesome, undeniable musical talents were able to hold on to a number of shoppers for a short moment, the other average ones failed to do so.

I hung around with the UOL's first year students, Foundation, HMC, A Levels and some of BComm students under the shades at HELP's booth. Next to us was the Digi's booth (Digi was the sponsor for this event). We were busy munching on the free popcorns provided by Digi while admiring the Digi girls' pretty Converse shoes. Was fantasizing while waiting for time to pass.

Bands and individual performers went up stage and came back down. Busiest people were the backstage people. Did some surveys and found out that they have some serious stuffs going on back there. Lots of coordinating, instruments check plus phoning up performers and ensuring their attendance. Of course, I wished to help but clumsy people like me was afraid that I might screw everything up in the end, so I politely apologized for not being able to lend some help. (:

Things began to heat up when the shift changes around 3o'clock in the afternoon. Yet, the crowd wasn't enough for us to begin our work. So we continued maundering stories, one after another while cheering after every performance. A quarter of the cheerleading team Blitzers from BU4 came to perform their short yet skillful routine as well! Loving the blazing charisma and energetic movements out there. Not to forget, HengLing, for treating the girls ice-cream sundae from McD. It was surely a perfect dessert to satisfy our cravings in such hot day

As the golden sun set for the day to some twilight moments, spotlight shone to highlight the performances on stage. My friend, Clement,

who was the drummer for his band - Pop The Cherry, took the stage and rocked it, just like how the other bands did. Apparently, his drum stick flew out of his hands accidentally when he waved it but he made it so cool looking as if it was a planned thing. Good thing he brought an extra because it had happened before in his previous performance. The crowd size was gradually increasing in number and of course, there were some rare sight of some crazy audiences and lead singers of bands, shaking their heads so vigorously like their heads were detaching from their necks. Felt like they were on crack, Ecstacy or some sort. Freaky. At that time, crowd control was all about preventing these psychopaths from going over the top and crashing the stage. It wouldn't be a beautiful sight if they did.

As the night veiled over the entire area, I grew used to the loud, heavy metal musics above my average tolerant level. I imagined how my eardrums were less flexible and insensitive to sounds right above inaudible level. Yet, that did not keep me from getting all pumped up during the event. I was shouting and cheering, easily blending into the crazy crowd out there, except for the fact that the shirt I was wearing was chilly red. I actually silently hoped to lose my voice the next day, but as usual, things I wished for never come true. Oh well, that was one frivolous and weird wish anyway.

The night ended well with me trying to calm myself down. Kiss The Rain by Yiruma was on replay mode. I fell asleep with much ease eventually.

Love.

14.7.2010

2010-07-22T03:58:00.000-07:00

If We Ever Meet Again - Katy Perry ft Timbaland

The day began at 12am. Duh... I was still up, studying. Need not say. Psychology paper was then, 14 hours away and I still yet to finish up the topic in the exam syllabus. I pondered how I would be able to sleep by now if I wasn't so confident and laid back in the afternoon after the Sociology paper previously. I kept track of the time, rushing to cram all the theories into my pea-sized brain. I was screwed. I called for the night at 2.30am thinking that I still have the morning to do the cramming. (what self-denial... pfffttt) Off to bed! -cuddles-

Woke up at 9 to the beautiful harmonica of Shakira's Gypsy. Again, thinking I was able to finish just in time before entering the exam hall after doing my indulgent calculations, I took my time and regretted for doing so. I panicked listening to Elza explaining the theories that I have not revised and obviously couldn't recall in such detail. It was just minutes away from 2pm. Confidence level shot down to minimum. Pity. During exam, Amanda, who was sitting beside me, did her exam paper at such fast speed that freaked me out. Confidence level - nil. The paper was tricky. I knew I was done for. Time constrain. Strict and hot tempered invigilator. Everything seemed to worsen with my lack of study. Eventually, time was up. I dragged my footsteps down to LC into Justin's car and off we went to CineLeisure for a movie - Despicable Me in 3D. Special thanks to Justin (if you are reading this, Justin, you'll know why). Ice-cream worked well in cheering me up. So it did too before the hilarious movie ahead. The small yellow characters, which speak Gibberish, never fail to bring a smile to my face every time they speak. Just too funny. Love the "daddy's" accent too! The small girl's fluffy unicorn! (quote from Justin) OMG ITS SO FLUFFY I'M GONNA DIEEE! Hahaha...

The night was ordinary. No internet, so I resorted to watching the idiot box, switching channels acting all like a potato couch. Not productive at all. What could I possibly do? NOTHING. So there you go. A day to remember.

Today was bliss in some way. Cheers to happy feelings!

&because when you pull me by the arm so that I turn to face you, I always imagine the best things.

EvelynLee.

so this is... Love

2010-07-02T23:39:00.000-07:00

I'll Move On - Olivia Ong

I looked at the calender. My heart sank.

July. Its July already.

Goodbye June... I miss you heaps.

This is love: When you notice someone's absence and hate that absence more than anything. More, even, than you love his presence. <3

Note to self: Good things happen to me trice in a blue moon. I hope today, the moon is blue. *self embraces*

Lovely, EvelynLee.

blood. Its red,

2010-06-29T11:30:00.000-07:00

California Girls - Katy Perry ft Snoop Dog

Just imagine, a stream of blood gushing out from your very veins. Spooky huh?

Nah... Its gonna save lives. So it doesn't really matter to me. Besides, I am pretty proud of it myself. :)

I actually had a really bad first experience if you want to know. A really nasty one. With all the agony, bruises for weeks, that whole process of blood donation till the recovery period haunts me till present day. Well, I got to say getting that amateur nurse who didn't really bother if she poked the right place that passes through my veins, was really the worst possible thing ever because the blood wouldn't flow at all. I initially supposed to donate 300ml and thanks to her, i couldn't even reach 250ml. Gah... !$#@%&

But, Lady Luck is certainly with me this time. A yay for that!

Monday morning,

I filled my stomach with unusually large amount of food before leaving home; I want to make sure I am in a perfect condition for a blood donation! I ate a cup of oat and biscuits! Seeing that I don't really have good appetite in the morning, thumbs up for being able to eat that much. Funny thing was, the doctor who did the pre-blood donating test asked me if my sister and I are twins. Weird. We don't even share similar faces. We don't even look like siblings. I was dark, my sister was not. So, I couldn't gather my guts to actually look at the process of the injection, which wasn't a big thing. And the process of poking the thick needle, which was a big thing. Not yet. Maybe i will in the near future. My next blood donation. At least three months away from now. *squeals* To fill up the packet, it was fast this time. I gawked at the machine that rocks back and forth in an interval of three seconds. I certainly looked like someone who just came out from an asylum and was amused with that little yellow thing that rocks. Well, a newbie. Can't help it.

Some weird scenario over there. An Indian man refused to drink at least a cup of coffee before leaving. Apparently, he's mute. The nurse who was in charge of 'poking' me actually muttered, "Macam mana cakap 'mesti makan' kepada orang bisu?". I cracked a silent laughter while watching her gesturing the man with all the uncoordinated and awkward movements. The people there certainly treat blood donors like royals. Flawless service with a smile. :)

I treated myself a cup of justnicetemperature Milo, one piece of muffin and two pieces of tuna sandwich. That will do. Kept my stomach from growling till lunch time. My appetite is growing, I am gaining weight again! Yay! At least I don't feel anorexic

Social Psychology. I'm getting pretty apprehensive about finals. It is in two weeks time. I am certainly not studying. Not putting my plans to do so into action. I just don't want to get lousy grades. I guess cuddling with my jacket in class was a bad idea after all. Plus, the comfortable seats, justniceroomtemperature, I dozed off during lecture and eventually slept through the whole chapter on aggression. Does this mean I deserve a punch in the face for doing forbidden stuffs like this? Cause I really feel like I do.

As for Sociology's participant observation, I got to say, its the first time in my human history that I manage to complete work in such a short period of time. I usually slack through my assignments, only doing them when I find words, inspirations and initiative, stop the moment ideas jammed up in the middle. Its an achievement. So, *shoots confetti*! :)

...

Its 2.30am right now. I'm up. I'm blogging. I'm waiting for the next match; Portugal vs Spain. Who am I rooting for? NO IDEA! :D

Class starts in 12 hours time. So I still have time to sleep even after the match. yay to that again!

I'm off...

Taa~ Evelyn.

and this is why I don't believe in magic;

2010-06-24T08:45:00.000-07:00

Future Love - Kristinia Debarge

I find myself easily deceived by magic tricks even though they are technical. More heartbreaks

Woke up at 6 in the morning to Taio Cruz ft. Ludacris's Break Your Heart. Indeed, broken hearted. Four hours of sleep. That sucked. Totally sucked the daylight and joy out of me. Sleep deprivation is turning me to a zombie. Woo~

We watched She's Out of My League in Social Psychology class. It was a pretty feel-good movie with only simple and common storyline. I guess that was why i felt the movie rather relevant. The bad thing about watching that movie was that we were given a choice to write a movie review using psychology theories that we have learnt previously to explain the situations from it. Its a two marks bonus if we did, so why not? Just that I'm being lazy. Planning to do it anyway, for the sake of my grades.

I wasn't sure if class cancellation was a news to rejoice to. First, the discussion on Sociology group project has been cancelled for a rather silly reason. Then, I find myself strolling aimlessly at Mid Valley with Vanesse, Justin & Xiau Wei. A visit back to Toys"R"Us was sure nostalgic. Those little things we used to play as kiddos just makes me miss childhood even more than ever, albeit the more advanced toys the shop has got to offer now.

I feel woozy and weak. My nose hates me and is making its escape from my face. That's a great news. I was Justin who was sick at first. Then I picked up the trend. It has been a while since I fall sick. I wonder if I can have my favorite Sick-labelled nightmare tonight! Well, its not really a nightmare, but more like the mind is playing tricks, creating loads of cool illusions with eyes wide open. Its either the things around me are gradually getting bigger or shrinking to really small pieces, making me feel like Alice in Wonderland or Thumbelina. (: Plus, it is totally awesome when I can actually hear my heart beat pacing up then slows down in such an irregular pattern. At that rate, I usually lie as still as possible as the littlest movement will cause the illusion to worsen and of course, eliciting adrenaline and fear.

That's why cool thing is rare. It only happens when I fall sick.

And, it is not guaranteed that I'll get that awesome "illusion" every time I do.

I guess I'll just anticipate. :D

Did I mention how everything you do remains unfathomable to me after so long? Its either you are acting all weird relative to your nature, or I don't already have the ability to 'solve' you.

&because when I say it is a secret, it is a secret that we both share.

Lovely, EvelynLee

a quarter of 5BR;

2010-06-23T08:58:00.000-07:00

Your Love Is My Drug - Ke$ha

Quote of the day: Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival. - C.S. Lewis

Saturday.

19th June, 2010.

Another reunion for 5BR has been organized by Khai Sern & Mei Yi, the forever enthusiastic pair (partners, not couple). Well, I guess even after leaving high school and parted ways, we never really changed, I mean the attitudes of the people from our class. Bunch of slackers, couldn'tbebotheredless attitudes. Bad. Bad.

First, the venue wasn't decided. Sunway or 1U?

Then, the place for dinner wasn't decided. Jack's place? TGIF? Or Chillis?

Come on! It was all messed up. Everybody started ringing each other up to set a place to gather upon arrival and ended up in front of the women's lingerie shop - Xixili, the whole gang of us. We strolled around the area, way too anxious & driven by the urge to catch up with one another. Many times, we drifted away from the restaurant decision making. Other shoppers scowled at us, scrutinized us with suspicious expressions plastered on. You can't even imagine how embarrassing it was being in that kind of situation.

Anyway, it was Jack's place in the end. ShiMin, MeiYi & I had fun collecting money for the bill! :D

Day ended great. The waiter who took our order has a cute personality. :)

The Girls,

The Guys,

The People.

I saw a guy playing the piano so melodiously. He wore spectacle. I didn't know it was you. Kelvin, you were awesome. Liking your charisma there. <3

Love, EvelynLee